Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Kita Masih Waras


Ini Asiah. Tapi orang kampung panggil dia Siyoh. Atau nama glamour dia, Siyoh Bobok. Satu Kuala Terengganu kenal dia. Masa kecik dulu, dia demam panas tapi tak bawak pergi hospital cepat2. Sekarang, dia jadi tak berapa betul. Cuba teka umur dia berapa. 52. Yer.. umur dia 52 tahun. Sekarang mungkin dah menapause. Dulu, masa aku kecik2, selalu kalau balik kampung, dapat dgr dia jerit nak keluar rumah. Itu mesti masa dia period. Mak dia akan kurung dia 4-5 hari. Bila dah bersih, dia akan lepas balik.

Siyoh selalu pusing keliling kampung. Kutip apa benda yg dia rasa berharga. Bwk satu plastik, untuk simpan apa2 yg dia kutip. Bila penat, dia akan lepak dekat tangga rumah org. Kalau org baik, dia akan bg Siyoh air minum, kuih atau roti untuk makan. Kalau budak jahat, dia suke ejek2 Siyoh sampai la Si Siyoh ni mencarut tak tentu hala. Kalau yg lebih jahat, diorang akan torture Siyoh, ketuk kepale dia dgn sudip. Semua ni Siyoh yg cerita sendiri masa dia melepak dkt tangga rumah Toki aku. Org lurus ni cakap dia, semuanya betul dan boleh percaya.

Kesian Siyoh. Nenek aku cakap, kalau ada orang bagi duit, anak sedare dia selalu kebas. Aku tak sure betul ke tidak. Tapi memang kesian. Budak2 kecik kat kampung tu semuanya takutkan Siyoh. Macamla nampak hantu. Budak besar pn ada yg tak reti bahasa. Kalau tak usik, Siyoh tak kacau kite. Cuma cakap baik-baik dgn dia. Dia dgr kata. Dan suka tanya soalan sama byk kali.

Dari kiri, aksi Siyoh bila disuruh buat muka sedih, muke gembira dan muke 'tidur'. She has feelings.


Bila tengok Siyoh, aku bersyukur masa aku demam panas kecik2 dulu, mak abah cepat2 bwk ke hospital. Kalau tidak, aku dah jadi terencat.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Hypocrite

Just came back from a week trip to my mum's hometown. Toki was ill. A bunch of story to tell u. But i'll tell u later. Got a lot of errands to do. By then, enjoy the picture of Maya Karin for Celcom's commercial in Terengganu for billboard. She wears tudung. Not only Maya Karin for Celcom, but Haflin Saiful Azhar for Digi too. Things for us to ponder.

This was taken at Jalan Pejabat, Kuala Terengganu.

And this was taken at MRR2, KL.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

We have been living in lies

Memang agak melampau. Politik negara kite kotor. Pekung oleh orang-orang besar akan cepat-cepat ditutup dan diselewengkan cerita sebenar. Kalau jenayah itu dilakukan oleh orang bawahan, jangankan sebelah mata, sipi pun tak akan dipandang. Kita akan terima balasan setimpal kesalahan. Atau mungkin lebih dari itu. Padan muka kata mereka. Tapi kalau yg buat tu orang besar, orang kenamaan, yg betul-betul salah pn jadi innocent.



Kesian Razak Baginda. Kambing hitam untuk Dato Najib. Siapa Mr Razak? Razak Baginda atau Najib Tun Razak? UTK (Unit Tindakan Khas polis) takkan sewenang-wenang terima arahan untuk bunuh dan letupkan manusia jika arahan tu datang dari seorang penganalisis politik macam Razak Baginda, yang juga penasihat politik untuk Najib. Siapalah sangat dia tu nak bagi arahan bunuh pada UTK. Memang dah jadi standing operating procedure untuk UTK, mesti ikut arahan "org tertentu" without question.



Kenapa Pak Lah balik serta merta selepas sehari berurusan luar negara yang sepatutnya makan masa 3 hari, melainkan ada perkara mustahak melibatkan maruah atau nasib negara? Kenapa mengaku bunuh Aminah Abdullah? Kenapa mengaku bomkan Aminah Abdullah? Kenapa terlalu berani? Dapat rasuah ke? Atau terpaksa mengaku dan tambah lagi sorang kambing hitam? Semata-mata untuk kambus kesalahan orang atasan? Betul ke Najib? Atau Rosmah Mansur pn terlibat? Kenapa bodoh pegi bomkan? Bukan ke lebih senang humban dalam tong, simenkan dan buang dalam laut dalam? Mesti tak nampak bukti.



Dah banyak kes macam ni terjadi. Semua tutup kes. Buang kes. Tak jumpe pembunuh. Heran ye. Licik sangat pembunuh tu. Kes Norrita Shamsuddin. Kes Tengku Teh Susilawati. Kes lain-lain yang agak2 ade kaitan dgn org politik negara. Kotor. Berani buat, berani tanggung la. Kenape mesti ade kuli batak yang kena jilat najis kau orang pulak!

Friday, November 17, 2006

Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover Part 2

Just finished my 4 1/2 days of training on Ergonomic. I wondered what are there behind the topic? Not the issue on training that I wanna talk about, not the Costa Rican trainer (she got fake boobs, very long leg and maggimee-like hair) but the people I met during the whole week.

I've always have this thought in my head that all Singaporeans are Kiasu. But that was wide of the mark since I met this lady Ms Tan, delegates from Jurong. She's not Kiasu. But very obliging and helpful.


Yours truly is standing the most right

I also have thoughts that I keep to myself that most Chinese are brainy. No. Not anymore. The Chinese that I met from Tianjin was so stupid that I think she got her phD from a 'chowkia' Uni. She thinks she is soooooo smart that she rejected opinions from everybody in the group and only wrote hers on the flip-chart. To add more, we barely understand her Chinese-English speaking. Demmit.

The group works require me to team up with delegates from Saudi Arabia. We are team mates the whole week. He was very funny and never fails to break the boredom of us in learning Ergonomic. The best part was his hilarity is original, way more high class compared to Zaidi's 'polluted mind'. At first, I thought his age is around 35-40. But I was wrong. Again. For the third time during the whole training. He is a father of 3 and has an extremely sexy wifey (he showed me the photos). And he has been existing in this world for 52 years, with a very jovial attitude. That explains.


~~Live life to the fullest

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Still water runs deep

Aku dah khatam baca buku cerita setebal 2 inci. Anybody Out There - Marian Keyes. Cerita tu sedap. Tapi sebab sibuk, lepas sebulan baru habis baca.



Pagi tadi bertengkar dengan mak. Ada salah paham. Mak bebel-bebel dan aku marah mak sebab banyak membebel. Mak merajuk dan kecik hati. Tak cakap dengan aku. Lepas tu, semua orang keluar rumah tinggal aku dengan mak je. Alih-alih mak tegur dan cakap macam biasa. Aku pn terus la cakap dengan mak macam biasa balik. Kene mintak maaf tu. Sekarang ni aku dengan mak je yang masih bersengkang mata belum tidur lagi sebab tunggu Apis belum balik-balik kerja. Mana pegi? Dahla tak angkat telefon.



Openhouse punya jemputan ada 3 hari ni. Malas pegi semua. Pegi satu je. Sebab boring duduk rumah sorang-sorang. Lagipun lapa jugak. Esok ada lagi 2. Harap dapat pegi dengan Himself.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

~Just for you~



And if I had a clue I'd know exactly what to do

If I were the wiser of the two

And if I saw it all so clear I'd write it all down and bend your ear

If I were the clearer of the two



c/o We can take a walk into the canyons of fifth avenue

Sing and dance just to name a few

All I do

All I do



And if I heard the angels sing I'd sing it back to you

And bring sound of heaven ringing just for you

And if I saw the sun fall down I'd pick it up and make a crown

One that was a perfect fit for you



c/o We can take a walk into the apple orchard by the school

We can make a little residue

We can find a place to stay

a secret little hideaway

Spend a little time inside of you

All I do...... All I do

All I do.......All I do

Saturday, October 28, 2006

It Is Harder Than U Can Imagine



What a pisser. I cant be with people and I dont want to be alone. I lost my place in the universe. I am more lost than I had known it was possible for any human being to be.



I fantasized a lot about us. What we wore, what time we usually spoke to each other, what song we used to sang when we picked up the phone when one of us called, our different smell that became identical whenever we sat side by side. When we had an argument/quarrel, we used to bump into each other, that shows we must not be apart. I went into nitty gritty details about us, which these things keep me company at night. We live in each other's pockets. We speak and emailing and texting each other thousand times a day.



What about him? How is he feeling right now? I hated that he has to go through whatever he is going through on his own. I knew that wherever he is now, he finds the separation terrible too. Where are you? Why dont u pick up any of my calls? Are u still in Germany diagnosing yourself? Why is no answer at all back to your hometown? Are your parents know anything about you but to certain circumstances, the news is not coming to me?



He sent me Danish Roses from 'Angeline' on Aidil Fitri eve... I felt so touched that I read the message on the card and straight to my room. Alone. Locked myself inside. Cried. Read the card again. Cried. Searched for anything that can bring me closer to him. Cried. Listened to FunTalk he left. Cried. Dialed his number for I-cant-remember-how-many times. Cried again. Till I realized that its nearly 8.o6 pm and I had not perform the Maghrib yet.



I cant wait for Monday.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Selamat Hari Raya

What do you get for Raya tomorrow?


A warm and cheery family get-together? Baking lesson? New extravagant clothes? Free hugely hamper? Perhaps new furnitures? Opulent Ang pau? New frenzied in-laws?



None above is for me. I got bad flu. Bad headache. Sneezes. Coughs. A big worries. And frantically waiting for THE PHONECALL. These are enough to make me dont have the feeling of Hari Raya.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Where are u...

Mana dia...? Mane nak cari....? Kenapa belum jaga? Dear God, please do your miracle...



Somebody is going to Germany on this Aidil Fitri for 2 reasons. Both is good but the consequences are scary.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

If Only

Tak pasti, mungkin aku dah pernah mentioned sebelum ni. Ini kali ketiga aku nangis tengok citer If Only. Sanggup tak tgk 3R yg jd favourite aku tu sbb If Only. Jennifer Love Hewit dgn Paul Nicholls. Sedih sgt. Sedih sangat-sangat... tengok la. Touching sgt. Kita akan jadi lebih feeling dgn cerita ni kalau pernah rasa ape yg watak dlm cerita tu rasa. Masih sedih. Tak dpt nak cerita panjang2. Nak sambung feeling.



Rindu awak... =.(

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Mr Democracy

One of my colleague is called by that name because of his behaviour that almost normal people dont have. He can tolerate to anybody, and sometimes, people take advantage on him. Of all people I've met during my worklife, he is the most patient worker. Never heard complaint from him.



He came from quite a meager family. Everything was scanty. In primary school, they (he and his siblings, 8 of them) sold 'aiskrim asam boy', 'aiskrim milo', 'aiskrim kacang merah', 10 cent per ice cream to the estate worker, everyday after school. TV was a no-no. He was from the Estet Kelapa Sawit Sabak Bernam. He was the head prefect in secondary school. 1/3 of his salary of 6-years-experienced-executive now goes to his brother's account who is now studying medical in Indonesia. He lives with his elder brother, who's also supporting their younger sisters and brothers for their study.



I seldom see him with new cloth. He comes to work with 'motor kapcai' for distance about 120 km, to and fro, everyday. One rainy afternoon I once asked him "Bila nak beli kereta?". "Saya mau beli ruma dulu..".



Maybe that makes him Mr Democracy.



~~The pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity, the optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Pain is just a State of Mind

Am I not good enough? Am I not understanding enough? Am I a jerk? Am I POYO. Teruknye saye. Saye manusia yg tak bergune. Sedih. Tapi saye perlu berusaha lebih gigih lagi. Sebab saye nak sgt2. Saye yakin.

F.R.U.S.T.

Frustrated with work and with STUPIDZAIDI.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Love doesn't have to end

Hiatus.



Seronok. Sebab 3R dah kembali.



Sedih. Sebab kene tinggal rumah sorang2. Kaklong tak pelawa pon pegi Tesco. Bukan nye nak pegi sgt pn. Tp at least pelawa la.



Seronok sgt2. Sbb semalam jumpe buah hati.



Sedih amat. Sbb dah rindu balik semula.



~Dhaa~~

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

So they say

Ada satu hari tu, aku singgah solat dkt Petronas Ampang. Sbb tak kusyuk sembhyg, aku nampak kelibat sesuatu. Lps solat... aku toleh pandang. Sorang perempuan dtg singgah surau Petronas dgn sorang budak kecik. Nampak mcm anak dia kot. Lepas toleh dkt dia, terus aku terlintas dlm kepala. Dan apa yg terlintas tu terus buat aku lebih yakin lagi dgn keputusan aku. Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover. Sbb apa yg aku nampak adalah seorang perempuan yg berpakaian sgt sexy.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Midnight in The Garden of Good and Evil

I hate the feeling when my boss said "Good job!" but the actual fact is, I didn't do anything great. It was supposed to be a simple briefing for visitors. I didn't grab the opportunity coz I hate when he steals my limelight in the middle of my speech (mind: his habbit). When it comes to do the talking in front of crowd, I prefer to say whatever lingers in my mind without preparation before hand coz that will make me less nervous. But this time, I failed big time when I forgot to thank The Director. Demmit! Blame goes to Helmi. He invited The Director. How in the heck he could ever do that? But it's ok. Coz I was just standing there laughing when my boss stole Helmi's limelight. Haha. Wicked.



By the way, TV2 failed to aired Keen Eddie. Or the series has finished. TOLOL!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Theres Always Light At The End Of The Tunnel

I've found something good today.



A person who hesitates and afraid of trying is person who will lose.

We have to make our own mistakes and learn our lesson.

Knowing is better than wondering.

The biggest failure is much better than never trying.



Have you watched a movie casted by Jennifer Love Hewit and Paul Nichols? It's a story filmed in London, with British dialect. Again. I just love that dialect. If Only is a movie that everybody should watch at least once in their life time. I watched it two times and cried three times. It’s not impossible that I could cry hundred times if I watched it twenty times. If only I have a single day left in my life, I will definitely spend the whole day with my beloved one. You know who you are...



~~Life is a series of commas, not period.

It Takes A Thought To Make Word

Semalam aku jumpe seseorang yg comel yg dah lama sgt2 aku teringin nak jumpe dan membuatkan aku gembira sgt2. Rasa mcm ada chemistry. Dia cpt rapat dgn aku. Masa dia kene marah, dia peluk aku erat2. Kami main nyorok2 balik kerusi. Dia bg duit syiling dia pada aku, yg dia selalunya tak bg pd org lain. Sebelum dia balik, dia peluk cium aku. Macam dah lama kenal. Harap dapat jumpe lagi, sampai bila2. Sekarang aku rasa rindu dkt dia.



Minggu lepas, aku dah buat sesuatu yg bg aku amat bermakna. Nasib baik ada Angeline. Lepas dpt bouquet tu, ada sesi follow up. Mak kata, dia mmg dah lama berharap dapat bunga sejambak. Sempat snap gamba mak masa dia terharu dapat ros sebakul. Ros tu tak kekal lama, tapi the thought that really count. Selamat Hari Jadi.







Panggilan telefon untuk Angeline = RM 1.25

Bunga ros dalam bakul = RM 100.00

Parking tiket untuk bank-in pada Angeline = RM 0.50

Dapat tgk expression mak masa receive bunga = PRICELESS



Cuba anda dgr lagu Peter Pan - Bagai Bintang Di Syurga dalam versi orchestra. Mesti meremang bulu roma. Kalau tak meremang, korang mmg takde bulu roma kot.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

I Dont Need Angeline To Tell Me Coz I Already Know

I was on the way back home when I received a phone call from Angeline. She is the florist girl whom I always get bouquets/baskets of flowers from 'that special somebody'. At earlier stage, she don't even have any idea who 'that special somebody' is, eventho he is one of her regular customer whom she always call to ask for flowers dedication. One day, she met 'that special somebody' in person when I sent him box of chocolate. Since that day, me and Angeline become friends.



Something that Angeline said made me grant with agreement. She told me that hand phone is a must-have gadget for lovers. She said that without hand phone, ‘susah mau cinta-cinta’. But one thing for sure, ‘kalau susah, baru nampak keikhlasan’.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Curiosity Kills The Cat

Agak lama tak dapat tulis. Aku nak ckp psl cerita/movie/drama/tv series/teater.



Lantai T. Pinkie

Teater muzikal yg tgh tayang dkt Istana Budaya. Aku tak berapa minat tgk teater sbb separuh dr jln cerita tu aku tak dapat nak phm. 1/3 drpd show, aku tertidur. Tapi aku decided nak join Imahan, Cikpah dan Leli sbb aku tak dpt spend time dgn seseorg yg selalunya aku spend time together2 sbb dia ada show dkt Penang. Agak tensen sbb dlm Istana Budaya mmg takde hp signal langsung. Tp aku pernah tgk teater muzikal Saturday Night Fever. English teater lg menarik sbb dia tak pakai bahasa yg penuh seni. English zaman dulu ttp sama dgn English zaman sekarang. Tp kalau teater Melayu, bahasa yg dipakai terlalu bersastera. Aku tak phm dan automatically aku rasa cerita tu tak menarik.



Keen Eddie

TV series/komedi yg best sbb British (jargon yg sedap), not American. Siri ni mengisahkan tentang Eddie Arlette (Mark Valley yg juga berlakon dlm ER, CSI, Spin City, The 4400, etc.), seorang Police Detective NYC yg dihantar ke England. Entirely berlatar belakangkan city of London yg bg aku sgt cantik, jalan cerita yang ringan yg sesuai utk ditonton lepas balik kerja, camera work yg cantik yg membuatkan cerita tu nampak mcm iklan komersial, hero hensem yg smart dlm kerja dan heroin cantik yg suka cari pasal, jugak diselitkan dgn lawak bersahaja antara Eddie dan rakan sekerjanya Monty Pipin (Julian Rhind-Tutt) dan housematenya Fiona Bickerton (Sienna Miller) membuatkan cerita ni lebih menarik utk aku tonton drpd Desperate Housewives. Waktu siaran yg sama. Cerita ni menjadi critical favourite di UK tp malangnya, di Malaysia hanya TV2 yg mampu siarkan. RTM, mmg kacau daun. Kdg2 tgh syok tgk Eddie, tiba2 iklan dan lepas iklan, cerita tak disambung lagi dah. Sampai la pukul 11 mlm. Frust. Sbb selama lebih kurang 20 mnt yg sepatutnya TV2 kene habis siarkan Keen Eddie, dia pegi keluarkan video klip selingan. Kecewa dgn RTM. Kalau cerita best mcm ni tayang dekat TV3 or NTV7 or 8TV, mesti lagi ramai org tgk sbb publisiti dia luas.



Gubra

No comment. Kalau belum tgk, tak payah la tgk. Lebih byk kutukan dr pujian.





~~If you keep on saying things are going to be bad, you have a good chance of being a prophet.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

The Killing Moon


This big hand, is a bad hand. FULL STOP.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Notes from the Plague Years

Dear,



Good luck in whatever you do. I'll be beside you always. In your career, hobbies or skills. Everybody knows your boss is suck big time. I know you are doing great with the guitars and music. Keep it up. Hope that your dream of having your own music class and studio will come true. Coz you are something special to me and that something special won't come by everyday.




~~Our doubts are traitors that make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Courteous Malaysian?

Aku baru bangun tidur. Terlelap sambil cuba dial nombor seseorang. Susah betul nak dapat. Tapi takpe. Kalau susah2 untuk sesuatu yg worth it. Mungkin jugak aku terlelap sbb penat bejalan.



Pg tadi bgn awal terus ikut mak abah pegi TESCO. Ada sedare nak dtg tengah hari. Jadi kene beli lauk pauk extra sikit. Ramai sgt org kat TESCO sampai aku rasa tmpt tu busukkk! Ada beberapa barang tak cukup. Jadi kami terus pergi Giant pulak. Sampai rumah dah pukul 12.30 tgh hari.



Kenapa aku melewer? (melewer....?) Sebenarnya aku nak cerita sesuatu pasal makcik kat TESCO tadi. Dalam tmpt yg ramai2 tu... ada jugak manusia tak tak bertamadun atau cuba buat2 tak phm atau tak nampak atau buat bodoh. Dkt tmpt timbang sayur untuk ambil price tag, ada terlalu ramai org kene beratur. Aku pn bersabar la beratur sekali. Sampai gilian aku, tiba2 ada seorang makcik terus letak barang dia atas weighing scale. Hangin. "Beratur la makcik!" Aku tak peduli. Malaysian mmg courteous. Tp untuk certain thing kita tak boleh considerate tak bertempat. Sbb kalau aku bg can kat makcik tu, mesti org belakang aku yg beratur mcm keretapi akan maki2 makcik tu dgn aku2 sekali...


Monday, April 10, 2006

Antidote for Irony

Jahat ke aku? Masa kecik2 aku pernah gunting cadar kat bilik mak sebab geram. Masa sekolah rendah, aku pernah kene wakil sekolah agama aku untuk masuk pertandingan hafazan, tapi hari2 aku doa supaya kalah sebab aku takut nak masuk final yg semua budak2 masuk pertandingan tu pandai2 belaka. Dah besar ni lagi la macam2 aku buat. Sampai orang lain tak suka dekat aku dan marah aku tak pasal2. Baik ke macam tu? Lain kali aku kena cuba jaga tingkah laku dan perangai short temper aku.

Monday, April 03, 2006

A Shot In The Dark

Dua hari lepas aku keluar berjalan2. Langsung singgah di UM. Dah lama rasanya tak masuk UM especially Eng. Faculty. Aku singgah solat. Masuk dekat Eng. Tower. Memang ramai student tgh lepak dkt situ. Terus aku tangkap yang sekarang ni tgh musim exam. OOoOOOooooooOOO... patut la ramai yang melepak depan Foyer. Exam rupanya. Rindu pulak rasa dekat BP. Makmal MGS. Cafe Pakcik Lah. Teh O ais limau. Cekodok pisang. Macam biasa... dalam surau lagi havoc. Ramai awek tgh lepak-lepak baring-baring tido-tido. Konon penat study. Aku pn penah.



Ada satu yang aku nampak haritu. Yang membuatkan aku nak tulis sesuatu dkt blog yang dah hampir nak berabuk ni. Boleh katakan setiap 2 org student yg lepak ramai2 tu... ada satu laptop dan satu printer laser jet. Itu belum lagi ckp psl henfon. Boleh katakan henfon student2 tu lagi tip top drpd aku yang dah bekerja ni. Dunia dah makin tua. Semua org mampu beli teknologi canggih. Walaupun masih belajar. Gadjet dekat market dah murah. Orang makin pandai. Boleh buat mcm2. Macam2 tu termasuklah benda yang baik dan benda yang membinasakan.




~~On the human chessboard, all moves are possible.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Daffodil Lament

After I've found out who sent me the flowers in the basket, I feel so sad to leave the roses at home. Too sweet to leave.



Saturday, March 11, 2006

To the faithfull departed

Nothing worthwhile comes easily. Half effort does not produce half results. It produces no results. Work, continuous work and hard work, is the only way to accomplish results that last.






~~Life is about appreciation. It's not how much we do, but how much LOVE we put into doing it...

Monday, February 27, 2006

To Air One's Ignorance

I've lost my contact lense. The right one. Im blind. Demmm...! Have to wear my glasses to office this morning. Can't really see things clearly with this glasses.



Read something that makes me firmer with my decision. All in all, it says if you worked hard enough, you could have whatever you wanted in life. 100% agree with that. So next time, when someone says they can't, tell them they can. If you still cannot reach what you really want for, all you need is just a little patience in you. Pray hard too. Everything will be back in order. So, try harder!




~~All love requires is an open mind and a willingness to risk being bitten

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Wake Up and Smell the Coffee

Dua hari sudah, bila baru balik kerja, aku intai adik aku dalam bilik. Aku nampak dia menangis sambil bercakap di telefon. Kenape ek..? Rupanya, dia sedih teramat sangat sebab best friend dia semenjak kecil akan pindah sekolah. Masuk asrama yang jauh dari KL. Kesian. Nanti mereka rindu2. Adik aku kata, rugi dia tak mintak sekolah yg sama lepas keluar result PMR haritu.



Dua minggu sudah, sorang kawan aku kematian bapanya. Dia terus sedih dan muram2. Dan sekarang dia taknak tinggalkan emak dia lagi. Takut menyesal.



Pelik. Kenapa manusia macam ni? Kita selalu take things for granted. Bila ada depan mata... kita taknak endah. Atau kita tak sedar sebenarnya kita perlukan seseorang tu. Bila dah tiada... baru kita nak bersedih dan menyesal sebab kita tak buat sesuatu sampai benda yg ada dalam tangan kita tu terlepas ke tangan orang lain. Ataupun terlepas ke mana2 yg kita dah tak dapat nak gapai lagi. Kalau nasib baik, bila terlepas, ada kes yg kita boleh dapat semula. Ada kes yg kita kerja kuat nak dapatkan balik pn, kita tak berupaya. Aku tak mau jadi mcm tu. Jadi, aku akan jaga apa2 yg aku ada sekarang dan akan simpan baik2 dalam diri aku. Jgn menyesal kemudian hari. Usahalah untuk dapatkan sesuatu yg anda rasa baik utk diri anda, atau yg anda inginkan sgt2 atau yg anda dapat secara percuma sekalipun, kalau benda itu sesuatu yg baik... jgn sia2 kan...




~~Life is a crusade. Go and get whatever you want before its too late. If you fall, wake up and strive for it. Never give up.

Friday, February 17, 2006

This could be the end of everything

You're my hunny bun, sugar plum, pumpy upmpy upmpkin.

You're my sweetie pie.

You're my cuppy cake, gumdrop, shygumsshmigums pure,

The apple of my eye!

And I love you so, and I want you to know that i'll always be right here.

And I love to sing this song to you,

Because you are so dear!



~~Life is too short to live. So, think good and say better and try to do the best, then this world will be more beautiful to you.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Can't we all just get along?

Today is the most sad day in my life... and something yellow will be my best friend tonight.



Thursday, February 02, 2006

26 is just a number

Huh...! I hate 26. In fact, i hate 6. Wishing 27 will come in a swift. 6 make me feel sick!



Thanks to whoever sent me, handed me and lavished me with these gift. Love it! Especially those with the most touching one.



Friday, January 27, 2006

I've Been Tagged

Memang agak lame. Sbb dah basi baru nak buat bende ni.



20 Tahun yang lalu (Tahun 1986)



Aku tak berapa ingat apa dah jadi tahun 86. Yang aku ingat, aku masuk sekolah tadika sampai 3 bijik tadika. Pernah masa nak pindah tadika tu, aku bgtau cikgu aku "Cikgu, esok saya dah taknak dtg". Sebenarnya start esoknya, aku dah sekolah tadika yg lain. Tapi aku tak tau mcm mana nak bgtau cikgu tu. Masa first tadika, aku selalu dtg lmbt sbb malas nak bgn pagi. Habit tu lekat sampai tua. Bila dah kerja pn selalu dtg lmbt.



Ada sorang classmate aku merangkap jiran sebelah rumah, Indian, selalu kene tipu dgn aku. Seingat aku, dia pernah kene tipu yg aku ada sorok jam tgn bawah kulit lengan. Boleh tahan jugak aku kelentong org kekecik dulu.



Tadika terakhir aku adalah tadika untuk anak2 air force tapi yang sebenarnye bapak aku army officer. Dekat tadika ni la aku pernah dapat anugerah "Budi Pekerti Mulia". Platter tu aku masih display kat dalam almari umah aku sampai sekarang.



10 Tahun yang lalu (Tahun 1996)



Tahun 96 agak sedikit saks. Sebab tahun ni aku masuk SBP. Jauh dari KL. Asek terasa nak balik umah je. Aku tak suka sgt cerita zaman sekolah especially sekolah ni. Cut it short. Tapi disebabkan homesick tahap dewa la aku jadi rajin belajar.



5 tahun yang lalu (Tahun 2001)



2001 adalah tahun yg paling mengecewakan dalam sejarah kegemilangan akademik aku. Tahun aku pernah dapat CGPA yg teruk ya amat. Aku tak tau kenapa. Agak2 nya sebab aku salah pilih subject. Aku ambik 9 subject dalam semester tu. 7 drpdnya core Chemical Engineering subject. Dan aku kantoi 4 paper okayyy! Bodoh gile! Takot gila Shinetsu tarik balik duit scholer.



Selain dari perkara ni, aku tak dapat ingat apa2 lagi perkara yang menarik. Sebab bagi aku, kantoi paper adalah perkara yg paling memalukan dalam hidup.



3 Tahun yang lalu (Tahun 2003)



2003 adalah tahun aku dah jadi super senior dkt UM. Masa tu, UM aku yang punya. Aku selalu sgt parking kereta dkt tmpt Lecturer atau staff UM. Tayar kereta aku tak penah kene clamp. Sungguh licik. Tapi selicik2 aku yang tak pernah kene clamp dalam UM, aku pernah kene clamp dkt PJ seksyen 14. Melayang RM50 nak bukak clamp tu. Tu la, dunia ni bulat.



Tahun ni jugak aku kerja part time dkt Midveli as sales girl. Aku kerja everyday sampai closing. Kalau kat 'emporium' selalu ada Kiosk jual brg2... aku ada la dkt one of those kiosk, jual origami, soft toys, quilted dresses with smoking and all other cute things.



Selepas grad, aku menganggur 3 bln. Tak sangka dapat kerja dkt GSK. Sebab aku pernah mintak untuk buat practical tapi kene tolak. Alangkah bagusnya kalau dapat buat training kat sini dulu. Dpt kenal org sini lebih cepat. :(



Permulaan kerja kat GSK sgt teruk. Dgn kerja yg teruk, management yg tak betul dan gaji yg menyedihkan. Aku agak tertekan. Dan rasa terhina dgn kerja sendiri. Aku kene penindasan yg amat teruk dalam kerja. Tp waktu itu, aku byk berfikir. Jgn keluar mulut harimau, masuk mulut buaya pulak. Setiap interview utk kerja kat tmpt lain aku pergi. Tapi aku tak terburu2. Sbb aku fikir, the grass is always greener on the other side.



Tahun Lepas (Tahun 2005)



Tahun lepas adalah tahun di mana aku rasa aku dpt naik cpt sgt. Tahun lepas adalah tahun yg aku dapat perform kerja aku very well. Tahun lepas aku dah nampak apa aku punya focus. Aku dah berjaya manage segala perkara yg tunggang langgang masa aku dpt position ni. Aku dah dapat kembalikan maruah staff bawahan aku dan pulihkan nama mereka. Dah dapat betulkan perkara yang tak betul selama ni menjadi panduan mereka. Dan yang paling penting, aku dah dapat buat pembaharuan dan development untuk diri sendiri. Semua ni sebab aku jadi bersemangat untuk kerja di GSK atas dorongan seseorang.



Perkara terpenting dalam hidup terjadi dalam bulan Ogos. Aku telah memiliki kereta Waja. Perkara termahal pernah aku beli dalam hidup, yang menyebabkan aku miskin sbb duit terkompol habis buat downpayment. Harap2, aku dapat jual kereta tu satu hari nanti. Sbb waktu tu, aku nak naik kereta lagi satu.



Tahun ini (Tahun 2006)



Setakat yang aku tulis ni, hari ni baru hari ke-27 dlm tahun 2006. Byk lagi perkara yg bakal terjadi. Jadi tak perlu tulis apa2.



Tahun Depan (Tahun 2007)



Kalau aku masih kat GSK, harap2 dapat jadi Utility Manager dalam akhir tahun. Aku nak manage semua Utility system. Without my boss to interfere. Aku nak aku yg buat planning dan decision untuk semua important and critical things. Huishhh...



10 Tahun yang hadapan (Tahun 2016)



Hmmm... masa ni umur pn dah 36. Tp lmbt lagi utk forecast apa. Sbb aku bukannya ambitious pn. Blah!

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Malaysian Customer Service - Saks

Hari ini tiba2 aku jadi rajin sikit. Aku nak ckp psl customer service di Malaysia. Satu perkataan untuk describe. S.A.K.S. Memang teruk. Untuk topik ni, aku tak suka Malaysian.



Dalam dua hari berturut2.. aku bengang dan tak dapat tahan sabar. Kes pertama, pasal main bowling. Aku dan adik2 aku disuruh tukar lane dengan paksaan. Memang tak jadi hal kene tukar lane. Tapi suruh la dgn penuh polite. Dan bagila alasan munasabah. Ini tidak, alasan dia sbb ada team lain dah booking lane tu. Tipu. Sebenarnya team tu baru je datang lepas kitorang dah baling bola sorang 8 kali. Kalau betul pn diorang dah booking sebelum tu, sepatutnya pihak management bowling tu kene letak sign dkt screen tv tu. Tapi takde. Tambah menyirap darah, bila dia padam screen tv tu masa adik aku tgh baling bola. Sudahnya.. aku begaduh dgn management. Nasib baik kayu lane tu tak pecah aku kerjakan. Nak lepas geram, kasut bowling tu kitorang campak2 bawah seat. Kutip la sendiri! Customer Service rating = 0/5.



Kes kedua terjadi dekat Eon Bank. Ini kes customer service yg bodo. Selalunya, bila aku dtg setiap bulan utk bayar kete, aku terus masuk dan ambil no giliran. Jadi, seperti biasa, aku ambil no giliran dan terus duduk. 1360. No sekarang, 1261. Betapa ramai la org dlm bank tu time tu. 9 Jan. Sehari sblm Raya Qurban. Agaknya ramai sgt org cuti haritu. Ada satu line kat kaunter 5 yang tak perlu ambil no giliran. Cuma beratur dan buat urusan. Tapi itu untuk urusan loan. Tgh syok tgk org lain punya aksi dan ragam, sedar2 dah 40 minit aku tunggu. No baru 1288. Lagi 72 org. Dem. Aku tukar tmpt. Berdiri tepi pintu. Tiba2 ada sorang perempuan Cina yang dah converted to Muslim masuk dan tanya Pakcik Guard. "Baya kete kat kaunter mane cik?". Dengan selambe Pakcik Guard tu jawab. "Beratur pn bole, ambil no pn bole. Mane-mane pn boleh". Huh! Sekelip mata, orang2 yang sedari tadi duduk tunggu no giliran terus berdiri dan beratur di kaunter 5. Termasuk aku. Bengangnye dgn Eon Bank Wangsa maju Seksyen 1. Semua sekali. Dari Pakcik Guard sampai Branch Manager. Diorang tak tau ke Visual Display? Diorang takde system ke? Customer Service rating = 1/5. Aku keluar dari bank tu pukul 2.45 dan masuk office balik pkl 3 ptg.



Pagi tadi, masa dalam perjalanan dtg office, byk kerete dr arah bertentangan bg high beam. Speed trap. Untuk ni, aku suka rakyat Malaysia. Kalau tidak, aku mesti dah kene speed trap.





~~ Life is about adapting other people's attitude

Monday, January 23, 2006

Your love is all around me

I love you. I love you a lot.









Who are YOU?









Whoever you are... I love you! Period.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

The Long Hiatus...

What have you done for 2005? Anything BIG? Anything that you cant forget? Anything historic? Anything remarkable and extraordinary?



Since I was young, I’ve always wanted to learn how to play any musical instrument but all I’ve learned so far, is recorder, the one which everybody have learned during primary school. Instead of drum, I’ve started my guitar class. But the class postponed until further notice.



Refer back to my first entry in 2005, I can only check ONE of that list.



By the way, I think O&G company is not everything. Wherever place you are working in and what ever field are you in, electronic, pharmaceutical, civil and structural, retail, logistic, marketing, broadcasting (just to name a few) as long as you like your work, you’ll perform and you will get excellent appraisal from your boss and of course good pay.




~~Love will conquer all.