Break up has been the hardest thing that happened to me early this year. I cried whenever I was alone. Then things that reminded me of him started to break/lose one by one. It’s a sign that I should pick up and move on.
Recently, few things happen that ticked me, pestering me to do something. I've listen to Paramore - Brick by Boring Brick and started to realized, I was dreaming all this while.
Last three weeks, I accompanied my friend for her blind date with a guy of 3 years younger than her whom we thought was a boring guy but he turned out to be a very good companion. All this while, I thought age does matter when it comes to relationship. Knowing this guy and my ex whom older than me, I know I was totally wrong. Age is just a number. Older guy can also act stupidly when they can’t accept your past mistakes, but instead keep on reminding you about mistakes that you have done.
Third situation was the book. A good friend of mine keeps on asking me to read He's Just Not That Into You and knows once I almost finished with the book, she lent me It’s Called A Breakup Because Its Broken. Those made me stronger and believe, being single is better than to live with a guy that not really into you.
I’m happy now that I found a good bunch of friends whom always on on everything. Whenever I ask them for a lunch in KLCC although that would gonna take us minimum of 2 hours during lunch time, they never turn me down. At least one of them. Answering our boss is different story. Not only that, a movie after work, or a drink over the nearby mamak or shopping after 20th of every month. So slowly I started to learn that I can’t lose any one of them. Despite whatever people said about them, I don’t really care. I am not befriend with their behavior but their companionship. Whatever they do wrong behind me, that’s not the issue as long as they are good to me.
But things are not always nice, and toast will always fall on buttered side. One of my new found bunch of friend is leaving to a new place to pursue her career and that really affect me a lot since we started to become so close with each other.
I hope that I can follow her step. Ever since I met that 2-year-younger-than-my-friend guy, I've started to think that this is the time to pursue my dream that I had since I was still in school. Being an expat and half Malay but non Malaysian and travel around the world, whatever he said does make sense. Pharmaceutical is not my passion but oil and gas is. That’s the reason I took Chemical Engineering. I know its the hardest and yet you get highest pay in oil and gas if you graduated with Chemical Engineering degree. There must be a reason for something right?
I am seeing 2010 as a year full of hopes and I shall waste no time. Wish me luck. Happy new year people...!
