The Best Port

I got this one secret place in my office that when I have anything that I couldn't bear anymore, I would bring myself to that place for some privacy. It is the Auditorium. Usually, that room will be empty but only on certain days when the room is occupied for some events. The carpet, chairs, wall, projector, TV, stage, speaker would always be my witness for any emotional breakdown that I face. I would cry my lung out, weep my sorrow and drain out my feeble heart till I feel easy with my own self. Till I feel stable and able to walk my body back to my own cubicle to just make some phone calls to have some hope for whatever trouble that I combat before. To heal emotionally would always depends on the phone call that I made.

Nobody knows. Nobody realize. Except for the carpet, chairs, wall, projector, TV, stage, speaker. It always be a good spot as the room has two doors and quite big for others to hear my weeping sound.

And today, I was there again. 15 minutes was enough for me before I took another exit door as I heard somebody was trying to open the other door.

I dig when im bored

The Saturday night was spent with doing nothing but digging pictures from the pc at home. I seldom use this pc as most of the time is occupied by Abah or my adik2. Plus, I dont like the keyboard. Since I was left alone at home the whole weekend and not allowed to leave the house empty, anything home is all mine except for the astro coz it got kabooom the other week. Internet was the next best after TV.

I found some picture and the explanation follow afterwards.

Picture 1: Trial attempt to create camera trick like my niece being abducted by giant/alien inside the luggage bag but later discovered that my feet revealed there.

Picture 2: My youngest sis and me on the way to Kelantan last raya (we r not kelantanese tho)

Picture 3: Remember my previous post? This is another example for same. Farah Fauzana Fafau Hot.fm for Celcom ad.

Picture 4: My own version of Lilo and Stitch

Picture 5: Celcom ad: Undisputed

Picture 6: View outside our chalet, Pantai Sri Tujuh, Tumpat

Picture 7: Patung Buddha Duduk, Tumpat

Picture 8: Free water in Kelantan anyone? This pipe burst is the biggest I've ever saw on the road causing massive traffic jam as the water shoot up as high as coconut tree

Picture 9: Tumpat Railway Station

I dream, therefore I am

This,

on the wall next to my bed...

This,

on the wall near the toilet

And this.

on my lovely purple bedsheet

Do I still need a reason for new bedsheet? Lesson, do not let ur niece take ur lipstick and going ART ATTACK in ur room.

Old Skool

The other day, i was doing some spring-cleaning to clear some room space. If I dont need to place The New Handbag box in my room, I would have done something else than to dig the old stuffs stored inside the boxes beside my bed. Those boxes have been my side table for more than 5 years already.

Look what i've found in there, my school batches. I was in St George's Girl School from 93-94 and was in Sekolah Tun Fatimah in year 96-97. Where was I in 95? Haha... in Sekolah Menengah Perempuan Air Panas, KL. So.... I've only been in girls school.

Are u older and wiser?

Its been awhile since I last blog. Too many things happen that I've decided not to write for a quite some time.

Im having some kind of urge within me that asking me, pestering myself to write this which I feel a good point to remind myself where Im standing now. I realize that it is now Jan again (duh..) and Im feeling the same for every Jan of every year. Funny this feeling go away by the time it reach December. But unfortunately, Jan and Dec is just a month away.

Im feeling older when:

1. I've started flossing my teeth coz somtin started stucking between my gums everytime I consume meat.
2. I've realized that my pimple breakout started to slow down. Older and dry-er.
3. I have loads of debts. Bills and account statement started to reach my mailbox.
4. My 20s almost overdue.
5. Have reportees and have to think n plan for thier career developement.
6. I have less friends that available whenever I needed one.
7. I'll tend to get easily tired after work and long day and end up no time to spend with others, except for myself only, which is either sleep or lying flat in front of the tube.