If life give u lemon, throw it away. Lemonade is overrated..!

It is almost new year now. I seldom write anything for new year resolution, wishes, target or any variation of that. But this time around, I want to.

Break up has been the hardest thing that happened to me early this year. I cried whenever I was alone. Then things that reminded me of him started to break/lose one by one. It’s a sign that I should pick up and move on.

Recently, few things happen that ticked me, pestering me to do something. I've listen to Paramore - Brick by Boring Brick and started to realized, I was dreaming all this while.

Last three weeks, I accompanied my friend for her blind date with a guy of 3 years younger than her whom we thought was a boring guy but he turned out to be a very good companion. All this while, I thought age does matter when it comes to relationship. Knowing this guy and my ex whom older than me, I know I was totally wrong. Age is just a number. Older guy can also act stupidly when they can’t accept your past mistakes, but instead keep on reminding you about mistakes that you have done.

Third situation was the book. A good friend of mine keeps on asking me to read He's Just Not That Into You and knows once I almost finished with the book, she lent me It’s Called A Breakup Because Its Broken. Those made me stronger and believe, being single is better than to live with a guy that not really into you.

I’m happy now that I found a good bunch of friends whom always on on everything. Whenever I ask them for a lunch in KLCC although that would gonna take us minimum of 2 hours during lunch time, they never turn me down. At least one of them. Answering our boss is different story. Not only that, a movie after work, or a drink over the nearby mamak or shopping after 20th of every month. So slowly I started to learn that I can’t lose any one of them. Despite whatever people said about them, I don’t really care. I am not befriend with their behavior but their companionship. Whatever they do wrong behind me, that’s not the issue as long as they are good to me.

But things are not always nice, and toast will always fall on buttered side. One of my new found bunch of friend is leaving to a new place to pursue her career and that really affect me a lot since we started to become so close with each other.

I hope that I can follow her step. Ever since I met that 2-year-younger-than-my-friend guy, I've started to think that this is the time to pursue my dream that I had since I was still in school. Being an expat and half Malay but non Malaysian and travel around the world, whatever he said does make sense. Pharmaceutical is not my passion but oil and gas is. That’s the reason I took Chemical Engineering. I know its the hardest and yet you get highest pay in oil and gas if you graduated with Chemical Engineering degree. There must be a reason for something right?

I am seeing 2010 as a year full of hopes and I shall waste no time. Wish me luck. Happy new year people...!

Grumpy I was

My phone doesnt ring anymore. Neither sms nor call. Im still using Minutes Plan from celcom and pay RM150 per month eventhough my usage is less than that. I cant change to other Minutes Plan coz they have come out with new Executive Plan which doesnt suite me at all.

The only time when my phone rings now is when my mum call if by 9 pm, I havent reach home. Or when that stupid system in office send me alarms. Like 32 messages within 10minutes. Sigh...

What I do best?

Lawa sgt kete ni.. when I got stucked in a jam, this is what I do best. Okay but the last picture taken on red traffic light. But I love that house.

My new Loot

I love strawberrynet

You know, ever since i know that site, I've always make it like a habbit to browse it at least once a week. And gleefully, I would buy something eventhough I dont really need the things offered. Now I have almost an A4 size box of makeup stock, untouch yet. Not good, not good. But I cant resist. Its too cheap and too cute.

The thrill of receiving parcel. In box, tied up with purple ribbon...

Excited, eventhough I knew thats my purchase. Not present.

Nicely wrapped. Individually...

Okay out of battery... the excitement continued at home...

See inside? Nicely stuffed with PINK paper.

Okay this is the first set. The best set since they combine all the nice color here. Original price, around RM 205 but i got it for 63!!! What an "investment"...! Since Stila has taken back all their counters to State, I consider this as an investment.

That includes illuminating tinted moisturiser shade 01, convertible lip n cheek color in peony, lip glaze ULTAmate pink (does not sold separately, only with this set), major lash mascara black, eyeshadows in mystic, golightly, wheat and best ever kitten.

The second set - My Mother My Hero. But this is for meee....

Not so charming paper wrapper...

But the very nice make up bag. I can use this as evening bag though...

Coz the label is inside...

Okay whats inside? All the bronzee and adult color. Im thinking of Lily Bass from Gossip Girl.

The 3rd set. Smudge pot in black, grey and brown.



Im loving it to bit....!

I have fallen in love

Catchy title huh..? No... im still in love with YOU. But I bought this last nite, my new love... It was on sale. Another pair to add to my Audrey Hepburn collection.. :)

Today's Outfit

Homemade Olio

Ingredients:

Red, green chillies and chilli padi (pounded) - more chillies is nice, smoked sliced beef, carrot (cut as per picture), tomatoes (diced), garlic (chopped), celery or coriander(chopped), lettuce (chopped, but in my case, i only have chinese cabbage), MasterFoods oregano and thyme herbs, olive oil, salt and of course spaghetti.

Bring the pan to high heat, pour little olive oil and dash in chopped garlic. Wait till u smell the garlic aroma. Set the heat to medium.

Put in the sliced beef. Cook till u smell beefy (beefy..?). Sprinkle pinch of salt, oregano and thyme. Dont forget to throw in the pounded chillies.

Add in spaghetti, carrot, tomato, cabbage and celery (if u use lettuce, add in both just a few minutes before remove pan from heat). Cook well. Now its ready to be eaten.

Preparation time: 30 minutes

Been given 9/10 for this... :)

Today's Outfit

Eh abaikan tong sampah yg jadi penghias gamba tu ek.. ni muke penyet sbb balik keje dah malam..

Kalau dah nak jadi...

Semalam aku balik lambat, jadi tak dapat park kereta dekat lorong sebelah rumah tempat biasa. Aku park kereta depan rumah, depan jalan besar, bawah tiang lampu. Pagi ni masa nak pergi keje, tgk kereta mcm lain jer.. sbb dkt tayar ada batu bata. Pusing lagi sebalah, 2 tayar kene rembat. Rupanya, rumah dkt jalan hujung pn tayar Perdana dia kene rembat 4 biji. Rumah jalan belakang, Proton Saga pn kene rembat 3 biji. Kenapa semua Proton je?

Tayar sebelah sini nampak tak luak je. Tapi memang pencuri tu ada niat nak curi 4 terus sbb dah siap letak batu dkt tayar depan tu..

Pergi balai tumpang kereta pakcik sebelah. Sebab aku sebatang kara waktu tu (mood sedih), jadi kene la mintak tolong org sebelah. Nasib baik pakcik sebelah ni bekas OCPD. Jadi masa report dekat balai tu jadi smooth n cepat. Ramai jugak la pakcik2 jiran2 keliling ni tolong tadi. Org2 dkt sini stok yg dah pencen duduk rumah so ade je siang2 macam ni. Ramai2 tadi bagi tips macam2. Parking kereta pusingkan tayar la, pegi pasang shock sensor la, pegi pasang lock nut dekat tayar la. Ade siap suruh parking dekat surau sebab surau tu guarded. Jenuh la pulak nak menapak balik rumah kalau parking dkt surau. Hmmm....

Masa dapat musibah ni tadi, aku call boss bgtau tak dpt attend EHS Forum so mintak dia ganti utk presentation aku. Aku bgtau my tyre got stolen. Baru kejap aku dapat call dari secretary dia tanye aku cuti ke? Nape tak datang? Bos kate taya ko pancit. Hishh.. bengap betul bos aku ni. Kalau alasan tayar pancit tu mcm alasan org2 malas pegi keje je kot. Tayar aku kene rembat la... Geram!

Heran ye, kalau dapat rezeki lebih sikit, ade aje la nak kene hilang kat memana duit tu. Bulan lepas hilang kat kereta jugak. Tapi kene bersyukur la ada jugak dapat rezeki lebih walaupun habis dekat benda2 merepek. Kalau tak dapat, lepas tu dapat musibah, defisit terus. Nasib baik jugak tak rembat 4 tayar.

I miss you

These last 2 weeks were very emotional for me for I had to face few situations.

Week earlier, I was playing Avril's Under My Skin album back to back while driving. Driving alone always give me chance to deal with my emotions. And always, Avril's My Happy Ending and Nobody's Home would lead me to tears. Imagine, I cried and with my jarring voice, sang to My Happy Ending the same time, just to counter my sadness.

Last week, I had a Quality Council meeting where the QA people highlight concerning issues to the top management and unfortunately, I got 3 and required to present to them what sort of actions taken so far. I presented it well but something happen during the meeting that my boss got embarassed when one of the managers warned him to shut up and let me speak. Second situation was when I answered the Director question while my boss was beating around the bush. Straight away after the meeting ended, we had a discussion which we already set up earlier on my Engineer's appraisal. But he changed the topic and asked my Engineer to leave his room for he wanted to discuss the earlier issue during Quality Council. Did he fell insulted?

We argued. As we always do. For I like to challenge him and he likes me for that attitude. But this time I failed and stupidly, my tears dropped. Shit. In front of him! Coz this thing was very intense for me. I cried not because im weak but because I was trying to control my anger for not to become rude to my boss. And all he did was pestering me with the thought that I already know that the 3 issues were serious. Well, it is still serious. But he didnt give the solution which a boss supposed to, till I asked him "What else do you want me to do?". He cant answer and we kept silence for about 15 seconds and moment later, I left the room as I didnt want many more tears drop in front of him.

I know I'll be facing a lot more issues tomorrow since I didnt go to work for almost 7 days now.

I was on leave last Monday just to help out my parents clearing up their last minute errands. I officially selected myself as their runner since Im the eldest not-yet-married among the family. Packed their luggage, ensure all dad's medicine tucked nicely inside his luggage (which is a lot, imagine cancer patient going abroad for 45 days) and handy bag for immediate consume, polished mom's loafers, run to Tesco for some toiletries, Mydin for mom's sarung lengan etc.

They left us the next Tuesday morning for Hajj. It was very emotional moment for us all eventho this is their second time performing Hajj, but this time, the condition is different. It was quite devastating to admit that you have to let them go. We, the siblings didnt agree at first since dad havent finished his treatment cycle yet.

That Tuesday morning around 1am, our relatives started to leave Kompleks Tabung Haji Kelana Jaya. Around 2.30 am, there were only our family and we departed from mom and dad at 3am. Non of us did not cry and everybody else were looking at us like wacthing some drama episode. I never stop crying till I reach home.

I dont want to have gloomy 45 days and I am now trying these:
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing’s true
There’s always a brand new day
I’m gonna live today like it’s my last day

Today's Outfit

p/s: Azida, recognise of something familiar?

Eidul Fitri

Yours truly wishing you:

Salam Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir Batin

Dari Mata Turun Ke Hati?

Disebabkan kening aku yg sedari kecik senget sebelah, aku cari alasan utk cantas kening. Tp kalau nak trim kening, lepas tgk dkt cermin, aku mesti kene ambik gamba pulak lepas tu sbb kadang2 dlm cermin nampak ok dah. Dalam gamba tinggi sebelah or besar sebelah.

Ok bukti2 kening senget. Sebelah melengkung sebelah lagi menyabit and straight:




Ini kening dalam proses mencantas lepas balik keje dgn minyak2 muka:


Ini lepas keluar dr bilik air dengan minyak yg dah berkurang:

Al Fatihah to Siyoh

Remember Siyoh @ Asiah? I've blogged about her last time. She passed away last Thursday, night time (im not sure what time). Those kind of people, Allah loves them more. She died in the month of Ramadan, the last 10 days of Ramadan, on the best night of all (Friday night). So sacred.

Bread Pudding

I made this today for moreh tonight at the Surau.

4 eggs, 6 tablespoon sugar, blend together till fluffy. Put it one side - Part A.


1/2 cup of evaporated milk + 2.5 cup water (if using tea cup instead of baking cup take 1 cup milk and 2 cup water), pour together and heat it up (just heat, no need to bring to boil). 12 slices of Gardenia bread if using baking cup or 10 slices if using tea cup, sliced to smaller pieces and put inside the water+milk mixture. If using normal bread which is not too dense, e.g. Roti Cap Kunci, use more bread and reduce the sugar to 5 tbs spoon. Sprinkle 15-20 black raisins and cinnamon powder.


Pour in the Part A.


Heat up the baking tin and add 2 spoon of margerine till it sizzles. Pour in the mixture of milk+bread+water+raisin+cinnamon. Bake for 35-45 minutes at 180oC.


Serve hot with vanilla ice cream.

Coughing and flu and Ramadan

Its been a while since I last blog. I was on few days sick leave and a day of emergency leave coz I was so unwell to see the Doctor for medical leave. I was having flu initially, with thick green slime. Then it lead to cough. Then I had a very bad cough. Went for rapid test and luckily it was negative.

I was coughing badly till I lost my voice. It was very difficult to recover as I was fasting and didnt skip any. Cant even speak or else I would start to cough rapidly. It was an embarassing moment when I was coughing during prayers and somebody from the other side of the curtain said, "ehmmm ehemm.. tu mesti Sue!"

I had to skip the jamaah terawikh with my mum coz it was very disturbing to pray together as I need time to clear my throat and spit my mucus out every 2 raka'at. So Mak went to Surau with Abah for jamaah. I feel so thankful when I got my voice back after suffering for almost more than a week but later that day I realized, I cant pray as the red thingy had come. Sigh...

Mix and Match

I like trying my clothing and play with them. Since myself and 2 other sisters of mine are almost having the same size, we loves to exchange our dress, blouse, top and anything. Usually, I will snap a photo of mine if I think I like my outfit of the day so that I remember how to dress up that way in future. I love colors.

So the other day, me and my sis went crazy and snapped our own picture of wearing our dresses. So guys, tell me which one is good or which one shouldn't be wearing at all or maybe the colors or accessories doesnt match at all. Dont guess who's the model tho...