To Be Left Out In the Dark

Selamat Hari Jadi. Kau baru nak masuk 24 thn. Aku dah hampir 25 thn dah. Kenape kau lahir lambat sangat? Aku jealous kau pegi UK, pegi Spain. Aku nak ikot jugak. Kau memang tak guna.. macam MARA jugak..!



Aku tingat first time ko beckp ngan aku masa kat 2nd college. Masa tu Cik Nab tegur dulu.. sbb Cik Nab nak soh aku jadi rumet kau. (hufff.. nasib baik aku dapat berumet ngan O'a.. sbb dia suke nak kemaskan katil aku masa aku pegi mandi baru bangun tido.. :D). Aku tingat ko ckp tanak jd rumet O'a sbb dia suka bercerita. Ahahhahha... sure O'a kalau baca ni.. dia akan cakap "Celakak ko Cikpah!" Tapi takpe.. aku yg jd rumet dia. Dia suka kemas brg2 aku. Lipat baju aku. Baju aku pn dia penah basuh. Apa kate aku lantik dia jadi pembantu umah aku jek nanti.. hehhe.. ehh.. tertukar subjek plak.



Bila kau nak jemput aku utk nasi minyak kau? Aku nak betandang Kg Pasir Ambor. Nak cium bau taik lembu lagi. Seronok la. Tak pernah aku rasa suasana kampung macam tu. Kampung mak aku dekat bandar. Batu Burok. Kampung ayah aku pulak byk parit. Sabak Bernam. (hehhe... bapak aku Jawa).



Rindu aa.. kat mak kau nyer masak lemak cili api yg pedas tahap cipan. Mak Cik Nab masak kaw la.. mengancam jantung meruntun tangkai hati.. pijar lidah aku setaun. Mak aku tanye.. bile nak rasa tempoyak Cik Nab lagi..? Aku teringat dekat 'serbuk cili api' dalam balang peti ais umah kite.



Dulu.. kau suka tido dgn kipas yg teramat la laju. Sampai aku rasa bilik kau tu begegar. Tp ttp selimut kau tebal. Sekarang kat Guildford dah tak tahan sejuk ek..? Tu la.. Kalau kau mandi.. aku rasa macam nak roboh bilik air tu. Sama la jugak kalau kau basuh baju kat dapo belakang tu. Silap2.. runtuh umah kita.



Dah lama telefon meja aku ni tak berdering.. yg mana bila aku angkat.. keluar suara garau kau "Hello there.. the angel from my nightmare.." Ahahha... tegak bulu roma aku. Kau suke nyanyi lagu tp out of lyrics. Kau suke chop waktu utk kau online. Jumaat malam Sabtu. Kau selalu download ntah ape2 ntah... (tp yg selalu nya.. kau chatting dgn Yance.. :p) Aku selalu menyangkung tepi cpu kau.. nak tgk ape kau buat. Sbb ko suke ckp.. "Sue.. ko dah tgk tak videoclip ni..? Best!"



Kau mmg ada sense of camera yg sgt besar. Lagipn.. kau mesti ckp tgn kau menggeletar.. maka secara otometiknye.. kau akan ada dalam gambar tu. Kau selalu buat selera aku membuak2. Kalau kau makan.. mende yg tak sedap pn nampak sedap sgt2. Kalau kau belajar.. 5 mnt je waktu yg paling lama kau boleh concentrate. Dalam interval tu.. mesti kau akan nyanyi atau buat lawak atau kacau aku study. Lepas tu pulak.. aku ni selalu la sgt nye terpengaruh dengan kau. Cis..! Patut la result aku tak lawa. Ingat tak Sporte? Hehhe... tetibe teringat kawan kau tu.. yg kau kata dialah manusia paling sombong kau pernah kenal..



Ok la.. panjang pulak aku tulis pasal kau. Nanti kawan2 lain jealous pulak. Happy Birthday lagi sekali. Ingat ni.. its the thought that really counts..








~~Life is just begin..

Polaroid

Above and below. Cute faces that I like the most.







Mine.. at Batu Burok, Kuala Terengganu.

To Air One's Ignorance

Having a conversation with married women sometimes make me ponder. What would my life be after marriage. Kak Jue ask me to take jamu, go for urut, sleep early and of course baca Quran selalu. Kak Iza (my dearest mummy tiri) ask me not to be very depending on men. She does everything for household. From fetch her son, the bills, the laundry, groceries, the Bibik, house loan, properties, everything! From A to Z without her husband's helping hand. I wont do that. I mean... I can do it all like her but I dont want the things to be so easy for my future husband. Its about life-sharing. Agree... anybody?



Sanofi-Aventis Audit is finished with one finding on 'Air System'. I would say.. it was a major. No finding on 'Water System'. Suza in now in self conflict as she thought Shamsinar would kutuk her as she leave the company on audit season and left her with the major finding. Still terngiang-ngiang what Saras said yesterday while I was explaining to the auditor on my system.. "She's doing good. Very good. Organised..." Is that a compliment? Or her lakonan semata-mata.. as she always does.



Sound Of Music is coming to Istana Budaya on March 2005. I wish I wont miss it. But without Imah and Cikpah.. things like this would be difficult to come true.









~~Life is too-good-to-be-true

With best wishes

Rasa macam nak pecah kepala. Suza baru je abis handover segala 'maknenek-maknenek' pending job, files, report, etc. Huarghh... apela.. kengkonon memula kene handover dekat Saha. Tp sbb Saha tu teramat la bz nyerr.. maka Suza terpakse handover kat aku jugak. Untuk selamatkan diri... aku mesti bg Saha sume mende tu sebelum Isnin depan. Isnin is the Audit Day.. jejeng..! Makkk... terasa nak jd bengong dah ni. Macam kene hempap ngan batu. Secara tiba2.. otak tak berfungsi selama 15 saat. Lama jugak sesi serah nyerah ni. Dari kol 5 td sampai baru je abis ni aaa... bayangkan betapa byk workload! Dangg betul la..



From the other side of me.. aku sedih sgt sbb Suza blah. Dia byk tolong aku. Dr seorang yg bohodoh gila.. sampai skang ni dah cekap. Cekap sket la.. dah tau nak handle itu ini. Dah jadi tuff gila tahap gaban. Kene marah pn dah bleh lali sket. Iye aaa... cuba bygkan.. sejak aku masuk keje GSK ni.. aku tak dpt tunjuk ajar dari sesape pn. Since June 03 sampai Mar 04.. aku buat keje sendiri mengikut kepale otak aku fikir. Just imagine.. ape la sgt yg fresh graduate boleh buat masa tu. Masa tu takde manager. My late manager tu.. aku sempat keje ngan dia seminggu je. The last day tu.. dia siap pesan kat aku "U better find a new job. Susah U nak hidup sini takde guidance..." and that I remember until now. Mmg betul.. susah hidup aku sejak tu sampai la Suza masuk GSK and Saha become our boss. Sejak tu baru la ada guidance. Suza penah ckp.. masa first day dia join GSK.. dia tekejut tgk aku beckp ngan pekerja aku semua.. jerit2 dan kene ckp dgn tegas sgt2. "Garangnye minah ni..." Tapi lepas dia duduk seminggu.. dia pn dah jadi macam aku. Org bawah kami memang degil semuanya. Memang kene issue warning letter selalu. Semua dah naik lemak dah lama takda boss dan masing2 dah berada di comfort zone. Berapa kali aku dan Suza kene tipu dengan mereka. Tapi disebabkan kitorang ni bukan jenis yg duduk diam... mmg mereka kene balik la. Takkan nak biar org bawah pijak kepala kita!



Second day Suza kat GSK, dia dah dapat dengar Shamsinar maki hamun dan marah2 kami. Dekat bilik Shamsinar. Masa tu la Shamsinar cakap aku ni 'anak dara tak laku'. Aku ingat lagi ayat tu. Tapi time dia dah suka kat aku.. dia nak jodohkan aku dengan anak dia pulak. Takpe.. aku masih ingat ayat dia dulu. Suza cakap.. masa dia baru2 masuk dulu.. dia kesian tgk aku asyik kene marah dengan Shamsinar. Jadi dia banyak tolong aku. Dah banyak kali aku nangis pasal kerja... (takde siapa yg tak pernah nangis pasal kerja bila kene marah dengan Shamsinar..) Kerja kami bedua byk yg sama. Jadi byk yg faham sama2. Tp dia mmg terel. Kdg2 aku salute. Selalu jugak kami betekak sbb nak tegakkan kerja masing2. Tapi ok balik sbb professional. Hehe.. betekak waktu pagi.. time lunch.. "Jom gi Carrefour..!" :) Tgh2 lunch pn.. handphone berbunyi.. menggelabah balik ofis semula. Jarang kami dapat klua time lunch dengan tenang.



Kalau tentang kerja... kami sama2 mengumpat Saras. Kadang2.. Kasma pn join sekali. Ada gelaran untuk Saras, supaya senang nak refer dia time depan2 org ramai. Saras cukup tak suka kami berdua. Dia mmg tak suka sesiapa dekat department aku. Tapi dia orang kuat Shamsinar. Aku rasa.. sejak Suza masuk GSK.. dah jarang Shamsinar marah2 aku. Aku tau.. sebab pengaruh Suza. Shamsinar sangat sayang dekat dia. Jadi aku pn terselamat sekali. Kalau tidak.. posting aku sebelum ni... byk sgt konflik diri pasal kerja.
Kena marah.. kena marah.. kena marahh..!
Masa aku clash.. banyak aku mengadu dekat Suza. Dia selalu jadi pendengar setia. Kata dia.. kisah hidup aku banyak persamaam dengan kisah hidup dia. Taste kami pn byk yang sama... cepat2 aku berdoa aku dapat kerja tempat best2 macam dia. Puncak Niaga.. Ranhill.. GSK.. Petronas. Semua big2 company. (dan dapat suami baik macam dia dan.. anak yg comel macam anak dia.... :p)



Sekarang aku tinggal sorang2 balik. Terpaksa la baik2 ngan budak2 Production semula. Tapi mereka semua lelaki. Susah la nak ajak shopping waktu sembahyg Jumaat. Hmm.. takpe la.. aku carik hobby baru. Harap2 esok dapat handover issue2 ni pada Saha. Aku tak nak to be answerable untuk Audit Sanofi Isnin ni. Dha~~






Her last day in GSK



~~Life back to square one

Money back guarantee

Not in the mood of writing. But need to update something and tell the world. A few to list down:


*Lokman has been discharged from Pantai Medical. He's getting better. And cleverer. I went to Ayer Keroh last Thursday

*Finally, I got back my Nikon 5200. Love it.. loveeee it..

*Countdown for Suza:4 days left

*We had our lunch at Pantai Dalam. The highest kilometre that ever strike my car mileage for having our lunch there. Ayam Golek Pantai Dalam.Hehe.. to kill two birds with one stone.. because we were also heading to Jalan 225, PJ

*Terkantoi with Saha.. because we went out for lunch at 12.30 but never return untill 2.45. Wallaa..

*Saha said to Suza.. "Handover all to me.. don't handover to Suraya. I don't want her to be under pressure.." hehe.. I like this so that I don't have to be accountable to answer for the DCA Audit. Or maybe this is just their reason because.. Im not fit for the post. Ahh.. persetankan mereka..!<

*We went for Shah Mizar's wedding and I have to correct my self for having the thought that her wife is looks like Gwen Stefani. (but maybe in Malay version kot.. boleh laaa :))

*I got my kebaya from Kedai Kak Sapurah

*The most sad news is.. MARA is freezing their loan for next yearr.. huhu..



~~Life is a beginning of one end

Bury The Hatchet

Im on leave tomorrow. The first place I wanna go is my x-lecturer, Dr Wan Ashri's office in UM... to seek for his advice. Im I choosing the right course or not. And also.. Im going to British Council. For IELTS registration. Im going to MARA too. Hopefully the form for study loan is still available. Im going to see Boomah. And kedai Kak Sapurah too. Hehaha.. rakuss... sume nak buat serentak esok. By the way.. I'm getting better. Manage to carry on my works. Appetite is back. Mak is not kecik ati anymore because of I-don-eat-her-cooking last week.



Luqman admitted in Pantai Medical. My poor little nephew. We have to pay him a visit. He's admitted for his operation next month.



The truth is.. my workload is getting bigger and heavier. Suza is leaving for Petronas. Im alone again. Fatimah is leaving too. She wanted to be a fulltime Domestic Officer (home maker) after her pregnancy. Office life is getting worst and worst... and once.. I did think that Saras can easily 'mugged' me after Suza's leaving (actually.. its more than once) because Im not persuasive to her... but relentlessly.. she has nobody else. From 15 executives here in my department, only 4 is left. U might say this is fraud. But it is the fact! So.. whether Im capable for my job or not.. inevitably she has to admit. (Hahhaa.. aku je yg paham ape aku tulis ni.. ni politik GSK kalau ko nak tau..)




~~Life is much much better now..

Doushite...?

Dalam waktu lebih kurang 3.45 ptg, Ahad, aku berada kat plant. Aku berada kat GSK kerana tanggungjawab aku. Nasib baik Allah telah beri petunjukNya untuk aku sedar kembali. Minggu lepas.. semua yang aku buat jadi serba tak kene. Fikiran asyik melayang. Aku rasa macam mimpi. Tak percaya dengan ape yg terjadi mlm 29 hb tu. Tak percaya dgn ape yg terjadi mlm2 lepas raya. Patut la rasa tak sesap ati je 2-3 hari lepas raya tu. Rupanya..sesuatu dah tejadi.



Lepas aku dapat call mlm tu.. aku terus menggigil2. Aku rasa marah sgt. Sedih belum muncul. Aku terus angkat fon dan call Cikpah kat Surrey. Tak jawab. Mungkin dia pergi kelas. Then aku call Imah kat London. Aku cerita segala-galanya pada Imah. Tp sikit pn aku tak nangis. Imah nangis untuk aku. Terima kasih kawan.. sebab kau betul2 memahami aku.



Pagi Selasa tu.. aku bangun dari katil. Sakit sgt kepala. Sbb aku tak dapat tido langsung mlm tu. Aku pk sekejap. Betul ke ape yg jadi? Aku mimpi ke? Mlm tu aku cekal sgt. Sikit pn tak klua air mata. Takpe.. Allah Maha Adil. Aku masuk bilik mak. Mak masih duduk atas katil. Aku dah nak start sedih. Aku peluk mak. "Dah putus mak.. dia ada perempuan lain..." Mak peluk aku erat2. Mak nangis untuk aku. Aku terus tak dapat tahan lagi rasa sedih aku. Seorang ibu menangis mengenangkan nasib anaknya yg malang. Aku nangis sepuas-puasnya kat mak. Bengkak muka aku. Mak risau.. takut aku eksiden lagi bawak kereta. Sbb aku pernah ada sejarah eksiden bile aku tensen dan bawak kereta.



Hari tu dekat ofis.. aku takde mood langsung nak buat keje. Makan pn tak lalu. Sejak saat tu sampai sekarang.. aku hanya makan bila aku tersgt lapar dan menggigil2. Aku nangis lagi. Aku nangis bila takde orang nampak. Aku sembhyg dan berdoa lama2. Aku menggigil lagi sbb tahan marah yg becampur sedih dan benci. Aku pergi klinik dan dapat 2 hari MC. Pukul 4.45 ptg aku dah bersiap nak balik. Tepat pukul 5 ptg aku balik terus. Tak pernah aku balik seawal tu. Dalam kereta aku call Cikpah sekali lagi. Aku mesti cerita dekat mereka. Kali ni Cikpah angkat. Dia baru bgn tido. Suara serak sakit tekak. Kau rawk la Cikpah. Aku cerita satu persatu pada Cikpah. Dia menangis bersama2 ngan aku. Terima kasih juga kawan.. sebab kau betul2 memahami aku. Sekarang baru aku sedar.. seorang sahabat lebih bermakna daripada seorang kekasih.. kekasih bukanlah segala-galanya.



Kerja aku jadi tunggang langgang. Dah 3 hari aku tak pergi kerja. 2 hari MC dan sehari EL. Bukan aku tak tau yg keje aku melambak sebab audit Disember ni. Aku tau.. tapi bile aku nak start buat keje je... aku rasa nak melalak. Kejap2 rasa geram yg teramat sgt. Rasa nak bunuh seseorang. Kejap2 rasa macam nak bunoh diri. Kejap2 rasa cam nak terbang gi Nagano. kejap2 aku mcm berharap jadi gempa bumi kat sana biar sumorang mati termasuk org tu. Tapi aku sedar.. tak baik doakan kecelakaan org lain. Biar Allah tentukan. Dia Maha Adil. Kejap2 aku rindu teramat sgt. Kejap2 aku rasa masih syg tp sgt2 kecewa. Kejap2 aku terbayang sesuatu. Akhir sekali.. aku nangis lagi. Kat ofis.. Kak Suza la yg jd pendengar setia. Dari dulu pn.. mmg aku selalu ceritakan pada dia. Obvious la jugak. Sampaikan Encik Saha tanya kenapa. Aku sayang bos aku. Dia bos aku yg paling concern.



Happy birthday. Saya ingat awak selalu. Semua yg saya tgk.. saya nampak awak. Henfon saya ingatkan awak. Awak kate henfon saya cantik. Black book kat ofis ingatkan awak jugak. Ada awak dlm tu. Bag saya. Sbb slalu masuk brg2 awak dlm tu bile kite jln2. Idd card collection saya melambak2. Dah tebal macam tayar kete kalau susun. Password acct saya semua kene tukar. Bila pegi dapo, tgk periuk pn ingat awak. Tgk sayur dlm peti ais pn ingat jugak. Awak nak tlg potong sayur kalau saya masak. Tgk sofa.. sbb awak penah describe sofa mcm mana awak nak beli nanti. Tgk pooh besa tu... ingat awak lg. Naik kete ingat awak. Awak kate nak drive bile dah ada lesen. Gi KLCC lagi trauma. Nampak Genki Sushi. Mid Valley pulak boleh buat saya nangis tiba2 tgh2 jln. Kiku Zakura. Ingat tak kite seram gile lalu kat kubur sbb nak gi mkn kat Bellamey? Lepas tu tutup plak tmpt tu. Ingat tak Cranberries? Rasa mcm nak buang je kaset tu. Naik Putra pn ingat kat awak. Simut saya.. sbb salu nyorok dlm simut bwh bantal busuk tu kalau awak tefon saya malam2. Nanti mak jage. Wallet awak ada lg? Dockers awak simpan elok2 tau. Awak ingat tak lagu Korean, Kiss-Because Im a Girl? Awak kate.. kalau saya buta mcm tu.. awak akan syg n jaga saya selamanya... tp saya belum buta pn lg.. sekarang baru saya faham maksud lagu tu. "Although I will curse you I'll still miss you since I am a girl, to whom love is everything. I can forgive but I cant forget even though you hurt me". Ya Allah.. jauhkan la ingatan ini dariku jika dia bukan untukku.



Aku dah cekal dan tabah bebanding seminggu lepas. Pedih hidung aku. Sbb ari2 berair je. Mak kata jgn nangis sgt. Nanti hilang mata. Itu kurniaan Allah yg paling bernilai utk kita lihat keindahan dunia. Aku tau ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. Mungkin Dia lebih sygkan aku. Bg aku ujian sebesar ni supaya aku lebih tabah. Td dalam kereta masa balik dr keje.. aku jadi semangat sikit. Sbb aku dgr lagu ni. Diva - Aku Dia dan Kamu. Strong sgt lagu tu.. buat aku redha cekal n kuat. Bun kate aku tuff. Tima kasih adik Bun. Akak akan tabah. Kalau dah takde jodoh.. kite buat camne sekali pn.. mmg tak dapat. Tima kasih Ayu.. sbb bg smgt. Tima kasih Tyso sbb kau tak benci aku. Ya Allah.. kalau kau sayangi aku dgn tunjukkan aku jalanMu ini.. kau tunjukkan la juge jalan pada dia supaya dia buat pilihan yg bijak. Kalau aku bukan pilihan terbaik untuk dia.. berikan dia seseorang yg jauh lebih baik drpd aku. Supaya aku dapat terima kenyataan yg aku ni masih kekurangan. Bukan temukan dia dgn yg kurang drpdku. Dan Ya Allah.. Kau temukanlah aku dgn seseorg yg betul2 menghargai dan menyayangi aku sampai akhir hayatnya. Supaya aku dapat jadi ceria mcm dulu. Supaya aku ada selera nak mkn mcm dulu. Supaya aku dapat sentiasa syukur nikmatMu ya Allah. Kesian mak kecik ati sbb aku asyik tak boleh nak telan masakan dia.



Ada lagu aku nak paste kat sini. Semoga aku tabah. Awak.. lagu ni kite dgr masa awak balik Ogos aritu.. kat Desa Hartamas.



Adam - Haruskah



Di kala kau mencari cinta

Aku memberi... tetapi tak pernah ku rasakan

Di kala aku dilamun cinta dengan dirimu

Mengapa kau jauh dariku



Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu

Biarpun kau kata kau cinta padaku

Tidak kau rasa getaran ini

Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku



Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini

Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hatiku

Tak perlu kuucap 'Baby I love you so'

Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku



Haruskah aku menahan perasaan

Tak sanggup kau bermain di fikiranku

Tak perlu kuucap apa diimpikan

Jadikan pengalaman cinta kita berdua



Setelah semuanya berlalu.... hatiku sepi

Akan kusimpan cintaku ini

Di kala engkau pergi dari ku

Aku tersendiri.... mengapa engkau begitu

Tiada cinta di dalam dirimu

Biarpun kau kata 'Baby I love you'

Tiada cinta getaran ini

Tiada cinta lain sehebat cintaku



Haruskah aku menanti cinta ini

Kerna kau masih tak mengerti hatiku

Tak perlu kuucap 'Baby I love you so'

Kerna cinta darimu tak sehebat cintaku



Haruskah aku menahan perasaan

Tak sanggup kau bermain di fikiranku

Lupakan semua apa diimpikan

Jadikan pengalaman cinta kita berdua



Haruskah aku menanti cinta darimu

Haruskah....




~~Love is like wind. I cant see it but I can feel it.

U are the most stupid person I've ever known

Cobalah Untuk Setia - Krisdayanti



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Apalah maumu kasih

Kaupilih diriku

Didalam hidupmu

Nyatanya kulihat kini

Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia



Sudah cukuplah sudah

Ku memberikan waktu

Kau selalu tak bisa

Mencoba untuk setia



Chorus

Yang selalu kuinginkan

Yang selalu kunanti

Kau coba untuk mengerti

Apalah arti mencinta



Dan harus kau sadari

Bila ingin bersamaku

Jangan coba kau ingkari

Cobalah untuk setia..



Apalah maumu kasih

Kaupilih diriku

Didalam hidupmu

Nyatanya kulihat kini

Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia



Sudah cukuplah sudah

Ku memberikan waktu

Kau selalu tak bisa

Mencoba untuk setia



back to chorus

Masihkah aku diinginkan

Masihkah aku di dambakan

Masih ada waktu untukmu

Bersamamu akankah kujalani hidup...


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Sorry No Cure..!

I was just finished my investigation report on issues and lots of problems occured during last festival holiday. Two of my system was not on normal operating condition.. and I got the blame of not well planned and bad at management. Duhh.. heard that Shamsinar wants Suza to handle everything... including water system. Okayy... give all to her and let see whether one person can handle everything or not. (I'm not saying somebody.. but for sure anybody could not cope with these loads of responsibilities. That may lead to bad management and poor at planning... out of reach). Wait for tomorrow when She already read through my report.



So many things happen for the past few days since I last blogged here.(chronologically):



1. I bought the Levi's 577



2. I decided to merajuk to Himself due to some reason, but ended up to be more sedih when I found out that Himself didn't realize that I was merajuk. Naah...



3. I accidentally ruin my first day of raya by letting my Nikon 5200 jammed. The lense was stucked and I have enough for it to lead me to sit with my head between my knees the whole day, and eagerly wanted to return back to KL.



4. His sisters sent messages to me, wishing for Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin which I think that they haven't do any mistakes or sins towards me.



5. My merajuk plan have changed since I received the very first call from His Mama. She ask me to come for the raya cum kenduri naik aji on the 26th.. (that is this Friday) and claiming that she tried to call Kajang but nobody pick up the call. (I wonder where she got my numbers).



6. I got a callback from office and have to come to work on Wednesday (17/11) and Friday (19/11)... where my leave still on. What a factory.. my advice: don't try your luck to work in manufacturing field!



7. I spent 3 hours searching for the QS Citifoto at Jalan Klang Lama and Nikon Malaysia Sdn Bhd at Jalan 225, PJ.



8. I received my first duit raya since I started as an employed women (excluding those which I received from my family) from one of Abah's friend when we follow him to one of xSTARIAN's openhouse. They all agreed, the next openhouse would be Abah's and most all STAROBA member will come to our house tomorrow.. especially from his batch (637).



9. I'm fasting today..





~~Life is too short to waste for repeating silly mistakes.. learn faster!

Salam Benua..

Sejam setengah lagi, kami sekeluarga nak bertolak balik ke Terengganu. Beraya rumah nenek sebelah mak. Mungkin seminggu akan menyepi sebab lepas tu balik rumah nenek sebelah abah pulak.



Hmm.. apa nak tulis untuk tatapan dunia harini? Oh.. semalam Yasser Arafat meninggal. Seorang yang memperjuangkan bumi Palestin dari dicerobohi Israel. Israel...! Musuh Islam. Tapi dunia heboh mengatakan Yasser Arafat memperjuangkan bumi Palestin. Bukan memperjuangkan bumi Islam. Jadi aku kurang pasti. Dia golongan apa. Radikal atau konservatif. Mungkin ada taktik tersendiri. Macam Tun Dr. Mahathir.



Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin semua.. sbb aku selalu emosional.




~~Dha...

To Whom It May Concern:

My previous posting, Hand Me the Warmest Duvet and Comfy Pillow is referred. I don't know why there are people in this world that might think that these two excerpt "kite taubat la sikit" and "kalau rasa iman goyah.. pegi baca Quran" means that we both bertaubat from buat perkara tak senonoh. i.e: sex? Sangatlah bohodohnye orang yang berfikiran mcm tu. Does that the only meaning of "iman goyah"?!!! Ceteknya pemikiran mereka. So please.... pleaseee... think of anything else. I was talking about shopping. Because Im a shopaholic. And please.. please listen carefully here...! This is my blog. What I wrote is from my head. My thoughts. Don't ever2 scoff at it or if u really have to.. please keep it with u. And if u have any doubts/agog about it, just ask me, not somebody else. I don't want anybody else get the agony or humiliated with my writings. The End.

Al-Fatihah

Al-Fatihah untuk bapak mertua Kaklong. Meninggal pg tadi. 26 Ramadhan, pukul 1 pagi..



~~Hiduplah dengan berbakti kepada orang tersayang sebelum terlewat.

UK Edu Fair, Nikon, cookies and ikan keli bakar

So I went to PWTC last Saturday. Coming out the hall with two goodie bags.. contained of prospectus booklet, prospectus CD, application forms, IELTS registration form, unique ballpens, bookmarks and etc. Then I switch to the next floor for PC fair. Was thinking of buying the pendrive/mp3 player from Apacer. RM139.00 worth. Then I changed my mind coz I never had a planned to buy it. I'm not that type of person who will buy things that not in my list. Not without planning. Just before we wobbly took the hall exit after waited for Boomah, (quite some time.. u know Boomah..) I saw a camera booth. Quite big. Selling every single brand of camera. Almost all model. So I was asking for the Nikon 5200. It was cheaper by RM101. With the same accessories I could get before at QS Citiphoto. And.. there I have it.



At 5pm.. we already arrived at KLCC. Boomah wanted to pick her DGcam too. But the guy was not there. While waiting for her.. (againn.. duhhh...) I excitedly found my "Under The Duvet". It cost me RM35 bucks. Owhh.. the day before.. I bought the belt from East India instead of Padini because it was on 50% discount.. hehe.. I'm just me...







Nah.. semalam hari yg memenatkan. Aku bakar 3 adunan cookies. Part yang memenatkan adalah part membakar cookies tu. Oven kecik. Tapi seronok sbb Apis pn turun padang.





The dough





The cookies



Habis dgn cookies.. kami sama2 masak untuk berbuka pula. Mak Aya datang berbuka di rumah. Jadi, meriahlah buka puasa kami semalam. Masing2 ada kerja masing2 dan berjaya dgn kerja2 tu. Tapi.. abah failed. Mission aborted. Abah tak pandai idupkan api. Apis kate.. "Abah celup je arang tu dalam minyak tanah tu. Baru la idup api.." which is very salah. Kayu makin basah.. mana api nak idup. Aku jadi penyelamat keadaan. Fuhh..fuhhh.. tingat idupkan api kat tepi pantai masa kat Tioman. Cikpah.. O'a.. Boomah.. Eja.. Imah.. aku tingin nak pegi lagi macam tu ngan korang..!





The ikan keli bakar



To my cousin Imah-Hobart, to my friends Cikpah, Imah-London, and Nina: Selamat Hari Raya. Jgn jeles tgk ikan keli bakar tu.. kalau nak cookies tu... tempah awal2.. hari Khamis ni nak balik kg dah..




~~Life is sweet if u treat it good..

Hand me the warmest duvet and comfy pillow

Owhhh.. I hate this feelings. I have been cheated by my own friend. Closest friend. Dia kate dia pegi somewhere but instead of that, aku nampak dia somewhere else (terpakse tukar BM or else u all might know the gender of that person)



Forgetfull I am, I didn't list out one more thing. I'm too fond of buying Kenwood mixer for my mum. Too expensive and can't afford. One sweet day.. I'll buy either for mummy or for me myself. And one more thing, I'm changing my mind. That Canon Ixus series has not defeated my mind anymore. I want Nikon Coolpix 5200. If you are thinking of buying any.. go to QS Citifoto. Get a 15% discount if you are a J-Card holder.



Those blue Communique shirt was out of stock. And I can't get the Giordano because it was closed for renovation. Shaittte... being me.. the shopaholic.. I feel lemau. Start to think of it again.. 24-7. And yesterday.. my mum sounded very sarcastic. "Dah masuk malam tujuh likur ni.. bawak2 la buka puasa kat umah. Buat ibadat sikit. Taknak dapat Lailatul Qadar ke?" Hehehe... oraitt.. oraittt.. I am not pious enough. Was talking about this with Olleh last nite. "Bulan baik ni.. kite taubat la sikit. Kalau iman rasa goyah tu.. gi baca Quran!" Hait..... baiklah.. saya ikut arahan tuan! And I end up with a boring day today as I am now lazy to the max. Sleepy...




~~Life is what..??? zZZzzZZzzZZzzZz...

If Im not buying now, I'll buy it later

For having VCD, Astro and PC games the whole day, I had a little crick at my neck. At one time, I felt headache and these things keep on playing in my mind like crescendo (just my excuse.. )



Items that I hardly looking for and can't get myself to not trying it but can't afford to have any:

Levi's 577 Jeans

Konica Minolta DiMAGE X31 or Canon Ixus 500 or Canon IXUS 40

Tag Heuer watch

Nike Ladies sneakers



Things that I dream of and think that I don't look good in it:

Toric contact lenses (I have bad estigmatism okayy...)

Long coat from Padini Authentics (hell yeahh.. where can I wear this in Malaysia?)

Leather belt from Padini Authentics too (to match it with Levi's 577... hahhahaha... have to get the Levi's first, then only I think I look good in it.. heha..)



Those that I want before Raya but I don't think I get it just in time:

Pink organza Kebaya Nyonya with beige songket

White embroidered blouse from Giordano

Sky blue checked shirt from Communique, Isetan



In my next posting, one of items listed above will be inside my overflowing wardrobe. I'm a shopaholic. Can't resist.




~~Life is full of 'nafsu jahat-of-shopping' that stranded in our soul. Revealed it on Ramadhan, because Satan has been tied up.

My Saving Grace

I got this as forwarded email. Just to feel the Ramadan more.. try click link below. Should get goosebumps. Make sure u tune ur volume to the max and do follow the sequence.



Sejarah Islam.



Selamat Hari Raya.





~~Life is precious

Ode to my life..

Semalam, aku sempat berbuka di rumah. Walau ape pn terjadi.. pukul 5 ptg aku mesti pulang. Nahh~ aku sampai ke rumah tepat jam 6. Sejak dari pukul 4 aku sudah kurang mood untuk sambung kerja. Aku kira2 nak 'shopping raya' semalam. Tapi aku batalkan. Terus aku capai telefon dan tanya mak ape juadah hari ni? Wow.. Makaroni Bakar. Sedap! Setengah loyang pn aku boleh habiskan. Favourite aku. Kenyang yg teramat sgt. Macam tak larat nak pergi terawikh kat surau. Aku janji dgn mak nak terawikh kat rumah shj. Lagipn mmg dah biasa mcm tu. Kalau mak uzur.. kami semua pakat taknak pergi terawikh. Konon takde gang. Takleh nak nyempit celah mak. Tapi aku tak sedar pukul berapa aku tertidur sambil tgk Buletin Utama. Janji dgn mak hanya tinggal janji. Aku tersedar pukul 11.30 mlm. Gelap. Cuma ada cahaya dari TV yg tgh tgk Apis berdengkur. Dan cahaya monitor aku yg Baby tgh ngadap sambil sengih2 tengah chatting. Huh.. budak kecik tu.. sejak dah pandai chatting ni.. ketagih! Zaman dia la pulak sekarang.



Hari ni aku belek semua blog kawan2 Olleh kat JP. Semua cerita pasal earthquake kat Niigata. Aku nak tau apa dah jadi kat diorang. Tgk BBC dgn baca pengalaman diorang tak sama. Tgk BBC serupa mcm dgr 'Banjir di Kemaman', 'Tanah Runtuh di Highland Tower' atau 'Ribut Greg di Keningau'. Aku tak dapat rasa apa2. Tiada siapa berkaitan yang aku nak risaukan. Hari ini jugak aku asyik bergayut kat telefon dan ber'SMS' dengan kawan2. Mula2 pagi2 buta seawal 7.30pg, Rithauddin call. Lepas tu, aku pulak yg call Boomah. Lepas tu, Hude pulak call. Haa SMS. Boomah call semule. Sampai Saha. kene tinggal msg dekat Suza. "Return my call!". Akhir sekali.. Rithauddin call lagi 3 kali. Nak tanya macam2 pasal Oil n Gas. (Aku tau ke pasal O&G? hehehhe...). Dekat pukul 5, Saha suruh aku naik office jumpa Allan Cheah. AAaAAAaaaaAAaaaa... tak dapat bukak puasa kat rumah.. akhirnya.. aku bukak puasa tepi padang bola. Order lambat sampai. Aku bukak puasa dgn sebatang rokok. (akakka.. acah aje..) Dhaa~~




~~Life is like a spaceship..

Free to Decide.. but did I decide NO?

GERAMNYERRRRRRR...... aku tak tau mana peginye file aku yg penat2 aku buat semalam stayback kat opis sampai tak sempat bukak posa kat umah.. lagi geram sbb aku takde hardcopy. Kalau aku sesiap print semalam kan ke bagus. Dah le sekarang ni kene buat balik semula.. lepas tu pulak kene perah otak sekali lagi utk dptkan ayat2 sedap dan bombastic mcm report aku semalam.. sbb aku TAKDE hardcopy. GERAMNYEEEEEEE...... MANE AKU LETAK..??!!! Aku tak save ke..???



Morale of the story - Kalau dah byk sgt buat keje.. sampai takleh pk.. lebih baik balik umah. Jgn tamak..




~~AGAIN... Life is tough. It's tougher if u're stupid... (Am I that stupid???)

Shrooms KLCC, Soraya Khashoggi dan gaji baru

Aku dapat salary adjustment lagi. Ini kali kedua dalam masa 3 bulan. Betul sangkaan aku. Mereka nak bodek. Supaya aku setuju dgn ape yg di'plan'kan. Banyak. Takpe la. Rezeki. Terpakse la sedekah bebanyak bulan Ramadan ni. Duit raya tahun lepas pn adik beradik aku tegur. Byk katenye. Taun ni maintain je. Tak tambah.. walaupun dah dapat salary adjustment 2 kali. Baju aku belum tempah lagi. Jadi baju Raya aji je la gamaknye. Dah 2 tahun macam ni. Tak kisah pn... tak excited macam budak2 kecik dulu. Raya nanti pn tak tau dapat cuti berapa hari. 3 je kot. Begantung pada Suza. Dia pergi ke tidak.. tak tau lagi.



Ikhsss... dah masuk bulan puasa ni.. teringat sangat kat member2 aku yg dah pergi UK. Aku bila lagi? Teringat tak masa kite buka puasa kat Shrooms KLCC taun lepas. Sedpa sangat. Sampai teduduk tak larat bangun. "Aku suke makan ngan korang bedua. Dedua kuat makan. Kite be3 memang kuat makan. Kalau gabung sekali.. nasik sekawah boleh abis. Selera mesti membuak2.." Ingat tak tukang masak tepi tu perli "pegi la amik lagi dik.. byk lagi tu.." OoOwwhhhh.... aku ingin sekali makan dengan kau orang...!!

Soraya and Adnan Khahsoggi

Tadi aku terbaca satu artikel tentang SORAYA. Bagi aku, asal usul nama aku, kate mak, dia bagi nama aku sempena nama isteri turkish-saudi billionaire (Adnan Khashoggi) Soraya Khashoggi. Dia juga seorang model yg masyur suatu masa dulu. Bagi aku juga, nama aku dalam ejaan jawi mula dengan huruf 'tha'. Bukan 'sin'. Kalau 'tha', maksudnye.. roses from Jannah. Sedapnya nama aku.. terima kasih mak.




~~Life is tough. It's tougher if you're stupid

The-Fairest-of-Them-All

Aku dapat ini dari seseorang. Dia takot kene ambil darah. Tapi aku tak tau kenapa dia bagi benda ni.. sebab dia ckp.. dia sengaja bagi.. without any intention:



hmm..what should i write about Sue. Sue is : cute, very cute, cutest, beatiful, very beautiful, gorgeous, dead gorgeous, hot babe, hot chick, nice, very nice, nicest, friendly, over friendly, better, best, good, very good, so good, damn good, lovely, very lovely, loveliest, fair, the-fairest-of-them-all, princess-of-my-heart, help, helping, likes-to-help, likes-to-help-too-much, clever, cleverest, very clever, too-
clever, not-cleaver, cry-baby, such-a-crybaby, snow-white-lookalike, pretty, very pretty, too-pretty, prettiest, cool, coolest, cool-mint, like-aircon, patient, very
patient, too-patient, sulk, likes-sulking, cute-when-sulking, loving, so-loving, very-loving, loving-bf-very-much, hardworker, very-hardworking, sometimes-lazy, don't-like-to-go-to-work, but-still-harworker, funny, very funny, funniest, funfair, like-make-funny-joke, but-joke-not-funny, face-funny, funny-looking? just-kidding, dreamer, daydreaming, like-dreaming, dreaming-about-me?




~~Live life to the fullest. Go get anything u dream of before its due..

Expectations of Expactorations

Recently, Shamsinar is really nice to me. I kinda knew her intensions. My department now is cracking, headcount dropped. Everybody left. And the Corporate want us to reduce headcount by 10%. Most probably, I will be switched to machinery, which I really2 don't want to. (Duhh.. I don't even be able to lift the toolbox once...! Can't imagine how am I gonna ask everybody in the shopfloor to carry my toolbox. Or I'll be looks like a miserable mum with baby stroller, pushing and pulling my trolley of tools...)



They want us to be multifunctional. Perhaps by that time, I'll be an apple of GSK's eye. Priceless... (hehhe.. ya rite.. in my dreams..) But thats not true. It is not multifunctional. If I've been switched to machinery, I'll have to handover all my responsibilities in facilities now to Suza, which I see the starting point of my career doom. Saha is now trying to pujuk me to agree with their plan. My background is Chemical Eng. Im not good in influencing people. Please think twice if u wants to switch me to M&E. I'll be very lembap in catching up things (I hate electrical/electrical). And what will happen if I will not performing? For those who don't understand, its like u ask a surgeon to become dentist. Or u asks a QS to do architectural drawing or u asks a Physics teacher to teach Pendidikan Islam. What's the difference? Both also teacher what..!



So, they were discussing about my jodoh. Shamsinar was trying to list out names of eligible bachelor to be my future husband, including her son and Saha for I'll be his second wife. Really funny. Saha be the spokesperson who explained whether the nominees are still available, engaged or dating with someone else... while I was just smiling and enjoy my Nasi Ayam. The topic became more hot as everybody around the 18-seater table was focusing on me. Everybody was very excited. I turned red. Are you getting a fantastic cardio workout or what? Suddenly, Ch'ng (my former boss) interrupted the mood.



"Why do u want to become a matchmaker for her..? She already have one maa...."



And Daniel added.



"Ultraman Taro..."



Shaitt...!!! If im not holding 5 PR (purchase request) to be signed off by Shamsinar, I must be gone off of the cafeteria 15 minutes before...!!




~~Sometimes... life is to good to be true.. and p/s: Hazizi.. I am the apple of SHS eye now.. ngee~~

Kain berapa ela?

Pagi semalam ada seorang akak tegur aku.



"Sue.. akak tgk Sue ni.. teringat nak tanya satu benda. Agak2 Sue ni pakai baju bape ela ek, kain..? Kecik je.."



Aku berkerut fikir. Akak ni nak cakap aku pakai baju kecik2 ke.. atau nak cakap aku ni kecik ke.. atau nak cakap aku dah kurus sejak dua menjak keje GSK..? Sbb tadi aku pakai baju longgar. Shirt warna biru yang tak kecik. Tapi tak la menggelebeh. Sedang elok. Labuh jugak. Hmmm... harap2 dia nak ckp mende terakhir yang aku fikir tu.



Anyway.. aku baru habis satu audit kecik kat GSK. One more big DCA Audit akan datang 15 Oktober ni. Mungkin lepas ni aku makin bz.



Anyway sekali lagi... aku suke baca blog ni.. Aksi Datin



Daa~~




~~Life is beautiful if u know how to see the beauty of it..

Koishite Shinitai

Sunday is quite a boring day if I was left at home alone with my 2 little sisters. Early morning, as early as 10 am (yeah riteee.. it is considered as early if it is Sunday), I received an SMS from Boomah, asking me for our earlier plan, which was to attend the CNI Career Talk in Bukit Jalil. There would be artist performance, presenting Siti Nurhaliza, VE and a few more quite famous names. I'd rather dwell my self at home and cancelled it since my parents and Kakngah were not around these 2 days.



Later, I received one more SMS. This time was from my beloved Fadori, saying that he was preparing for the 'BBQ Autumn Holiday'. Geezz... I wish I was there. I wish I can sniff the fresh and windy air of the breeze autumn, which I think I admire most of all the 4 seasons.



I jumped off the bed and started to clear the room. I made the bed, swept the parquet floor, and wiped the cupboard. Suddenly, to my surprised, I received a very heart bimbo SMS from my first crush. "Akum Sue, kau tgh buat ape? Free tak?" This long-lost friend is now in JB. We become friends after a 8-months-perang dingin since he know I was having a crushed on him. That time, Fadori and Sumo were the friends of mine whom I've told my secret crushed storyline to. From the smile that he engraved to me, to the 15 seconds conversation. From the moment we met in the elevator of Menara Kejuruteraan, to the vroom sound of his RXZ. That was 4 years ago. I wonder why in this world, there are guys who will totally reject a girl's feeling towards them, just because they thought that they are not macho enough. Egoist. No guts. How can a girl makes the first move? Why not? If those guys are really deaf and blind enough..?



Rewind. Then we continued SMS'ing', asking 'what's up' to each other. He lost his mother early this year and how finally he managed to finished his study after been extended for several times. Pity him. And he once told me that he won't be present for his convocation. That I forgot to asked.



I continued my works, cleaning the bathrooms, washed the cloths, cleaned the kitchen and cooked the mouth-watering Nasi Air. (all the list of works which every homemaker does, and I think my Nasi Air is really a mouth-watering meal.. :p). At the end of the day, I realized that I've finished watching the 8-CD of Japanese Drama, To Heart - Koishite Shinitai. I can't help that I admire cute Fukada Kyoko.




~~Life is full of beautiful choices...

"Tick tock.." The clock ticks life away~

Perjalanan aku belum selesai

Banyak perkara yg masih terbengkalai

Hutang pun belum langsai

Tapi mengapa aku di sini tersadai?

Aku ingin ke Yorkshire dan mendaftar di Leeds

Tapi kesungguhan aku masih tipis

Aku juga ingin ke Guilford

Mengaji di Surrey

Buat apa?

Untuk kembung perut makan angin bersukaria?

Atau untuk benar2 belajar Sarjana?

Mungkin juga kerana letih bermati-matian di GSK

Letih memerah otak berfikir

Hinggakan saban hari tiada senyuman terukir

Entah-entah kemaruk dengan penangan Cikpah

Ahh... aku tak kisah

Yang pasti.. suatu hari akan ku redah

Walaupun payah akan ku gagah

Impianku mesti kukecapi

Tak kira sepuluh tahun lagi

Benua Eropah ku jejak nanti




~~Rancanglah kehidupan masa depan kita.. gagal merancang.. bermakna merancang untuk gagal..

Time for all the wrong reasons

Arrived very late at office today. 9.52 am. Suza was not around. Started flipping through my organiser. What's up for today. Suza entered the room. Looking very bad mood. Thought I'd better not start the conversation or we might ended up squabbling or fall out, arguing about something. Maybe about yesterday. She asked me for help. I refused. Maybe she just discovered that the thing she requested yesterday haven't been done yet. I'll do it. Laterr.... but... what make she think that she is not included in the list of person responsible for that? Why me..? Only? Cannot be.. or maybe she feel bengang because within this week, I came to office late for 3 times. One for emergency leave. One more, I got a greenlight from Saha, suggesting me to come at 12noon because I worked late night the day before... and one more, today. Its just because of the tradition, everybody coming late on Saturday. Why she's sooo moody today? She dont even asked me for 'Saturday shopping' as usual as we always do so. Pelik. Its our compulsory 'agenda' on Saturday. OOoooOOoOoOoorrrRRrRr.. maybe she got family problem this morning. Or maybe she got PMS.



I miss chepah... by this time.. maybe she sat by a tree.. with 'smoke' coming out from her mouth everytime she talk.. with long coat. But its not winter yet. Dunno.. I just cant imagine the wheather. Never been there. I realized that from now on.. I cannot call her straight away whenever I had a problem with my work.. my love and no more crying/yelling/'maki'ing/'kutuk'ing on the phone with her. Chepahh.. rajin2 la update blog.. aku nak buat semak sane. Ko bwk tak bantal matahari aku..?



~~Life is to live while you think.. and think while you live..

Hand me the world in silver platter

Went for my friend's engagement at Kg Awah, Temerloh, last Saturday. Since knowing Yan about 6 years back, I've never been to her house even once. Her total hantaran for engagement was 11 dulang. All decorated expensively. Simple but nice. What an engagement... I wonder how her wedding will be... and to make me whoaa'ing' again.. her duit hantaran for kawen, RM8980. Byknyerrr.... Yan was my room mate during our student life in UM. Known her as the most lucky girl I've ever met. When Hari Raya comes, she would be the richest among us... 10 of us. Her brothers, her sister, brother in law, mak, ayah and of course her boyfriend would have something for her. On her birthday, the same thing happen. Car, pocket money, expensive cloth for Raya, handphone, etc. And in early 2004, she was very2 lucky to get Proton Gen 2 Grand Prize Winner for one of Carrefour contests. Whoa... Yan will get married soon. Before January 2005. His husband-to-be won a Second Prize for some contest too (not sure what is it), for 3D 2N to Japan, flight tix, cost about RM10000, to be spent within 6 month after announcement of winners. Whoaa again....





~~Life is sailing in a boat around the world. Make full use of what u have and don't grumble...

After all the sounds have sounded

5 minutes ago.. I just put down the phone. I called Irene, asking for NaOH labelling. I heard her voice sounded a bit strange. Not as usual as her voice is. She was crying.


"I have so many things to finish. I have dateline..."


Poor Irene. She's a very nice girl. Too polite and fragile. Sometimes I didn't realize that I do hurt her.She stay alone inside her room. Thinking of her workloads.. loads of workssss... which need to be settle.


"Did Ch'ng scold u?"

"No.. I'm just too worry. I cant finish by dateline. Too much paperwork..."


I cant imagine how bad she would cry if Shamsinar interfere and start to scold her as she scold me everyday. Haha.. Shamsinar.. this morning she made me laugh of her. One of our plumber was repairing her toilet hose. But she didn't noticed that the repair works haven't finished yet. She pee without flushing the toilet. And to make it worst.. she ate petai lastnight. Hahha... funny.. but yucks.. busyukkk..


Last week I've done a thorough cleaning at our Flammable House. For 30 years.. that room was under Store keeper's control. Suddenly, I have to take the responsibility. I have to check and have the list of items kept there, shelf life of all chemical, date receipt, quarantine period, what is it used for, expiry date, MSDS and etcetera etcetera... SHIT!!! Why me...


"Suraya... I want you to take the responsibility to take care of the room. U r the owner from now on. Go and clear the room now. Get people to help u now! Call me today when U r ready. I want to check the room. Make sure before 5. Im going back by 5..!!"


Sounded familiar? That Shamsinar's voice. I spent two days to tidy up the room... complete with room and racking layout.. and also items history and all info that she wants. I got helping hand from 3 of my technician. Two days gone without finishing my own job. The next day.. she said...


"Suraya.. tomorrow you call all the guys who was helping u yesterday to the cafeteria... so that I can say thank you and breakfast on me."


I staggered out of her room.


"and call Suza too.." sounded very prejudice...


What the ****. Why Suza should be included!!!? Bias...!!!


Just forget about her. I called my food-psyco-boyfriend just now. He was sleeping.. maybe with stomach full of lunch meal. Very excited to see u dear. I wanna buy that new organza cloth.



~~Life is easy if u can get rid off the person that u dont want in ur life

No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

It has been quite some time since my last posting. Aku tak berpeluang langsung untuk bercoret kat sini mcm dulu2. Tulis panjang2. Kali ni aku tulih panjangggggg sgt. khas untuk viewers blog aku ni yg dah selalu sgt hampa setiap kali bukak url ni.. tapi takde update dari aku. Sori. Aku bz sgt akhir2 ni. Last sekali no. kat counter bwh tu masa last posting aku.. baru 162. Sekarang dah 256 lebih. dah lebih 90 kali org hampa tgk blog aku yg basi ni.




Macam2 dah terjadi dalam masa hampir dua bulan ni. Aku dah dapat satu ilmu baru. Belajar dari Italian Ingeniur. Dapat member baru dari Italy, named Rino D'Agata. Aku dapat salary adjustment. Aku dapat promotion dan naik gred. Aku dapat bos baru sekejap.. imported dari India. Shamsinar suruh aku benti keje pasal dia tak suke aku sebab dia kate aku tak pandai manage pekerja aku. Aku dapat buat case ngan salah sorang pekerja aku sampai hampir masuk Domestic Inquiry. Tu semua sebab Shamsinar. It were all those things which I shouldn't recall. Tapi yang paling best sekali.. aku dah tangkap cintan balik semule ngan Olleh. Which is very good.




Masa aku sebuk buat validation ngan troubleshoot untuk water system aku tu.. waktu tu la aku di 'serang' bertubi2 dek Shamsinar. Semua sebab pekerja aku sorang tu. Degil keras kepale. Bebuih aku suruh dia buat keje. Tak tebuat2 jugak. Dah tau Shamsinar benci dia.. buat la perangai elok2. Sekarang dah kene show cause letter. Sape susah? Aku dah bgtau dia suruh buat working report ke logbook ke utk segale keje yg dia buat. Degil tak nak ikut ckp aku. Sekarang pekare kecik dah jadi besar sampai aku sekali yg susah. Sampai aku plak yg Shamsinar soh benti sbb kengkonon aku tak pandai manage pekerja. (Aku sendiri pn takde manager... mmg la susah aku nak manage org kepale batu mcm tu..). Pastu.. Shamsinar marah aku depan2 org sume.. kat depan Auditorium.. dah le masa tu ada event kat Auditorium baru nak start. Org klua masuk. Ingat aku ni anak kambing ke..? Takde maruah? Nak marah pn professional la sket gi masuk bilik. Ni marah dedepan.




Masa tu aku geram sgt ngan Shamsinar. Dia memula marah pasal aku tak reti manage workers aku. Then pasal RO water. Tahan punya tahan geram aku ni.. sampai klua air idung. Dia cakap aku tak buat checking, tak buat rounding tak buat inspection kat line sume. Dia kate everytime dia call aku.. aku ade kat tempat aku. Bull shittt.. bile mase dia call aku personally? Never...!! Then dia start compare aku ngan Suza. Suza lain... dia manage system. Aku manage system ngan org2 sekali. Suza ada 2 org je report kat dia. Aku ada 9 org. Lagi ramai.. lagi susah. Aku kene handle civil work for bldg mtnc... housekeeping pn fall under aku. Which is very susah sbb melibatkan byk org dan byk complain. Susah tau nak jage housekeeping for Clean Room Standard. Tak mcm housekeeping mcm kat hotel2 tu. Suza tak payah handle semua tu. Mmg Suza handle lg byk system drpd aku. Tapi itu utility. Dia handle 5 utility system. Aku handle cuma 2. Tapi aku byk handle facility.




Start tu yg aku tak tahan tu terus masuk toilet kengkonon nak amik tisu. Last2 tgk toilet takde org.. terus aku melalak dlm tu. Mmg sesape pn boleh nangis dgn kate2 Shamsinar tu. Pedas. Gile. Ungkit semua. Sampai boleh ckp duit gaji kite tu haram. Mane boleh dia compare aku ngan Suza? Suza tu dah 5-6 taun keje. Aku setaun jagung. Aku tau dia terpengaruh sbb Suza tu jr dia. Budak TKC. Aku benci org yg ade semangat sekolah tak tentu pasal camtu. Dah tua bangke pn nak buat perangai camtu. Aku sedih sgt2 sebab aku keje teruk. Ini yg aku dapat. Dah hampir 2 bulan aku keje nonstop. Without weekends holiday. Even Saturday Sunday pn aku keje. Bukan aku sengaje nak tunjuk rajin keje on Sunday. Dah memang aku wajib datang for any renovation works, RO water works, ngan site pest control. Shamsinar gak yg suruh aku dtg dulu. Penah aku ngelat sekali.. tapi waktu tu bukan la ngelat pn. Mmg aku takleh dtg masa aku eksiden dulu... sampai sekarang dia ungkit aku ni penipu dia. Penat sgt... rasa sedih sgt sbb susah payah aku tak dihargai oleh Shamsinar. Balik2 Suza tu jugak yg dipuji2. Sedangkan dia tak pernah pn dtg hari Ahad. Aku tak benci Suza pn.. bukan dia yg mintak Shamsinar suke dia. Tapi aku benci Shamsinar dan TKCnye... benciiii... sori.. aku emo.




Dah la ckp mcm keling. Tetibe dia tak bagi aku buat IQ OQ untuk RO water tu plak. Apehall...? Aritu beriye soh aku buat. Skang dia soh aku concentrate kat mende lain plak. Memula aku menjawab. Sbb Rino datang KL for 3 days only. Byk mende yg aku kene belajar dan catch up dari dia. Untuk 3 hari ni je aku focus more on RO water tu. Hari lain aku divide sama rata. Sampai Ch'ng kate aku tak buat keje. Irene dia je yg buat semua menda. Takpe la.. mampos kat diorang la.. asalkan En. Saha paham. Pepagi before sampai opis masa tgh drive.. mesti Saha call aku kasik motivation. Bagus la Saha. Time aku tension.. aku off phone seharian pn.. dia tak marah. Dia paham aku. Dia jugak yg bg salary adjustment kat aku. Byk jugak difference. Menda2 ni yg buat aku kuat semangat sikit. Hmmm... dah la tu.. nak cetira pasal kerja mmg tak sudah. Esok ade lg problem.




Selame Rino kat sini.. STILMAS byk kali jugak belanje aku. Hari tu.. Rino nak mkn Genki Sushi. Tapi aku tak tau paling dekat kat mane.. so aku ajak gi KikuZakura kat Great Eastern Mall. Masa makan tu.. aku tetibe rasa sedih sesgt.. teringat sesangat kat Olleh. Rindu sgt. Ade nostalgia kat KikuZakura. Esoknye kitorang makan kat La'Risata plak. Italian Restaurant.. belakang Shell Jalan Ampang. Dekat U-Thant punya area. Yaiks.. tak sedap pizza Italia. Piza stail Melayu jugak yg aku suke. Then.. mase on the way back to office.. kene tahan polis buat road block sbb tak pakai seat belt. Tp polis tu kasik lepas. Tau kenape? Sbb ade Italian guy dalam kete tu. Cisss.. tak aci..




Tak sabar rasanya nak tunggu org tersayang balik... lagi 8 bulan. Sekejap je tu kan..? Pejam celik pejam celik.. dah setaun jugak aku keje GSK ni. Dah setaun aku jadi minah kilang. Alaaa.. 8 bln tu kejap je. By the time aku ready nak kawen nanti.. aku takmo keje kat GSK lagi. Penat sgt. Hari2 balik lmbt pukul 8-9 mlm. Sabtu balik 6-7 ptg. Ahad keje halfday. Pepagi klua umah kol 6.45. Its enuff. Aku kasik can lg setaun keje sini. Pastu aku rasa nak blah. Bak kate Pakcik Mat Jidin.. dia forecast aku keje sini 2 thn.. ok.. 1 more year to go..






~~Hidup jangan seperti anjing kurap..

A place for my head

CINABENG..! BILE MASE AKU CKP MENDE TU 'LOW STANDARD JOB'...!!!???? CELAKE..!!! BILE AKU CKP..??? BILEEE..????

A Tribute to Saha

Hari ni aku rajin sikit. Balik keje.. tgk porch takde kete. Bapak aku belum balik lg. So aku pn park kat dlm.. lepas mkn sume.. aku basuh kete. Siap wax lg. Rajin sikit sbb baru beli wax tu. Lagipn kete aku dah tak ghopa kete.. huduh gile. Kotor tahap dewa. Sbb ujan seskit.. pastu wiper aku plak kong.. so kalau ujan.. mmg kelabu la. Ade sekali aku balik keje tu.. tgh2 jln.. mak aiii... ujan turun lebat gile.. memula elok je wiper tu. Alih2.. tetibe tak begerak. Ah sudahh... benti kat tepi la gamaknye aku ni. Boring nyer time tu sbb kene tunggu ujan reda. Mcm ni la agaknye perasaan org naik motor.



Dah lama aku tak buat posting. Sbb aku tak sihat sikit. Byk sgt keje kene catch up. Lepas aku dpt tau Engineer si polan tu nak benti.. lepas aku kene amik sume workload dia.. terus aku seram sejuk petang tu. Seminggu aku demam. Batuk2. Sakit pale. Payah siot nak baik. Sbb skang tgh musim jerebu. Aku batuk ni dasat gile sampai malu nak jumpe org. Asyik tebatuk je. Perit tekak. Kat atas meja opis aku tu.. ade 4 mcm obat batuk.. (mementang kilang ubat..) Satu.. Breacol (aku mintak kat Farid masa dia tgh wat bottling kat line).. dua.. Phensedyl (aku mintak kat minah QA lepas dia aprrove batch tu.. kalau tak approve lg.. mau meninggal aku.. takot ahh...) tiga.. Dequadin (dpt dah lama dah.. aku tak ingat bila. sume staff dpt masa tu) yg keempat.. ubat batuk ape tah.. yg ni paling sedap... sbb aku dpt dr Doktor Klinik Veda. Yg ni sedap sbb dia pekat sikit. Cam ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak. Aku nak tebatuk je.. aku telan.. nak tebatuk je.. telan. Sampai ngantuk aku dibuatnye. Syah kate.. kalau nak sedap isap pakai straw. Ahh.. mamat tu nak ngaja aku isap ganja ke ape.. hehhe.. aku tak la sampai addict ubat batuk tu.



Bos baru aku ni.. best la plak aku rase. Actually dia ni Manufacturing Manager. Memandangkan Engineering dah takde bos.. dia kene jage dedua department skali. Sian aku tgk dia.. makin sekeping la.. dedolu.. aku tak bape suke ngan dia ni. Dia ni jenis camne ek.. suke under estimate org pompuan. Maybe org lain tak bape rasa camtu. Sbb aku je pompuan.. yg lelain opismet aku kebanyakannye laki. Aku dulu slalu kene ngan dia ni. Kaw2 nyer kene. Sampai aku bengkek gile ngan dia. Lama2 baru aku tau.. dia suke nak test2 aku.. cabar2.. tgk aku bleh tahan tak. Skang aku dah reti nak tackle cara dia tu. Setiap org.. ade cara nak approach. Tu la alam pekerjaan. Kite kene pandai bwk diri. Tetibe skang ni.. aku rasa En. Saha ni best plak. Bleh buat lawak ngan dia. Masa aku demam last week.. dia sporting abih. Masa tu pukul 2.30 ptg. Aku ckp.. "Cik Saha.. saya nak balik lepas meeting boleh..?" Dia jawab, "aa... balik la lepas ni."



Pg tu dtg keje, dia call aku tp masa tu dia still dlm kete tgh driving. Bg nasihat kat aku.. suruh tahan ngan perangai Shamsinar.. ckp kat aku jgn breakdown... bg dorongan.. nak tlg aku handle problem yg Engineer tu tinggal.. aku la harapan department aku.. (cewah.. :p).. kutuk2 Shamsinar together2.. Shamsinar dah tua.. nyanyuk.. nyusahkan org.. bla bla.. Esoknye tu pulak.. Saha panggil aku lg... update anything happen. Pastu tanye aku dah sihat ke belum. Makan obat tak.. mkn ape..? Aku jawab Panadol je.. dia kate.. Panadol tu tak kuat tu.. makanla Panadol Caplet. Kuat sket. Ade rase sakit kat pale? kat bahu ade? kat leher sume ade? Aku jwb sakit kat pale je. Bahu belum lg. Pastu dia kate.. "aaaa... tu tanda2 org byk pressure la tu.. saye dah selalu dah rasa camtu. Caplet tu selalu dah saye telan.. maknanya ko ni belum cukup pressure lg la ni.. boleh la bg keje lg.." sambil tesengihh... mmmm... best rupanya ade boss ni.. instead of terumbang ambing takde head of dept. Direct report to Shamsinar. Maklum le.. sejak aku masuk keje sini dah setaun lebeh.. tak pernah merasa ada boss.. yg concern pasal masalah kita. Selama ni aku kalau ade masalah.. pk sendiri.. compile maklumat sume sendiri. Dig file sane dig checklist sini. Susah tuu...



Semalam aku ikot Abah ngan famili aku sume gi PD. Ade famili day UKM. Mak aihh... kotor cam cipan PD tu.. tak lalu nak mandi. Aku takat lepak2 je kat bwh pokok. Lg pn takde mood sgt. Asyik tebatuk je.. rase cam nak jolok tgn dlm tekak ni nak garu.. tensen betul. Tp best jugak la.. sbb kene treat best2. Cam anak raja. Maklum le.. anak bos. Slalunye.. kalau famili day GSK ke.. ade ape2 yg GSK buat ke.. kitorang mcm kene raikan Shamsinar tu. Jage ati dia anak beranak. Menyampah. Skang.. dpt la jugak rasa camne anak2 Shamsinar rasa. Abah siap nyanyi karaoke lg time tu. Masa nak balik tu..siap ade announcement.. "Keberangkatan pulang bla bla.." (tetibe terasa cam anak raja.. hehehhe) Dalam kete masa dekat nak sampai umah tu.. tetibe aku dpt msg dr member aku. Dia kate dia tgh syiok2 belek2 laptop aku.. argghhhh.. tensennyerrrrr...




~~Hidup umpama burung.. kita yg tentukan corak terbangan kita.. mimpi bak layang-layang.. terikat dan terhad.

A comeback that leaves us hanging

Today is such a 'BLACK MONDAY' for me. My sr engineer had tender his resignation with effective today... and he probably will leave the company within one week instead of 3 month notice. Really give me a headache. I can feel the pressure that I have to carry along here in GSK until I found a new job. Seems that the new purified water system installed here having something fishy problems. And as usual.. he going to wash his hands off this problems. Bloody hell...! He the one who's handling this project all this while! Whenever I asked him something.. he said.. I dunno. One thing I realized.. but not just me.. everybody here in GSK realized that he's having the attitude of not sharing any knowledge with others. From the beginning, he was the person whose liaise with the PONZINI or Stilmas. He never included me in his project. I once asked for the project timeline and he said "I don't have. Ask the Italian guy." Sialan! What the ****! He's the project manager. He should have it somewhere. I even asked for the technical drawing and equipment layout and I got same answer from him.. until I myself found it somewhere in the project file. Just now only I managed to get the copy from TS Manager. For the installation and commissioning.. he have to finish the work until that stage. And I only have to operate the plant once he finished his stage. He went to Italy by the way.. for this project. Sedap2 mkn angin! Suddenly.. he's going off of all these without finishing his job. No handover!



This afternoon after I finished my lunch.. Shamsinar called me at the cafeteria to discuss about this together with TS Manager. (if I knew she was there.. for sure I wont have my lunch there!) Againnn.... she said I'm looking blur! Blank! Of course Im blur! He is going off without any handover. He always airing his ignorance. Belagak tau tp sebenarnyer tak tau. He's perfect on becakap and documentation but not hands on. Luckily I have an initiative to learn about RO system myself. Before this, I am also handling the RO water system. But that one was just a small RO water system. 3 times smaller.. and much2 more easier than PONZINI's one. This new system operates fully automatic. I tell you.. its even harder to handle
fully automatic system because it is even more complicated. Ya Allahh.. amponkan dosa hambamu inii... aminn....



To make it worse... this morning when I arrived at GSK and went to see the plant.. it shows 'ALARM' mode. (PW High Conductivity CIT 33-7) and (Low Pressure Feedwater PIS 14-1). What am I going to do? The reading shows 'HOLD' status. There's an alarm sound.. BEEP...BEEP.. BEEEPPPPPPPPPPP....... AaaAAAaAaAAaAaAaaaaa...... tak retinyerrrrr.... . Then I called the agent whose also liaise with the Italian guy. Firstly they said they also dunno what to do because same as us.. we dont have the operation manual with us. (There is only the file separator stated 'Chapter 8: Operation Manual'. But nothing there. The slot in that file is empty) Then I tried to call Italy. No answer. Thank God.. suddenly I managed to contact the agent. He instructed me to list down several pressure reading and he asked me to email it all together with the alarm status to Project Manager of PONZINI and Simone, the guy from Stilmas. Now, I'm waiting for their reply. Maybe next morning only I managed to get their answer. So.. I think I better pack my things up and go back home. I feel like I wanna demam. I really feel that I'm not feeling well and sekarang rasa seram sejuk. (3 lapis baju and air-cond off)




~~Life is full and lots of ups and downs...

Has all eyes on you

At last, I managed to buy that ELLE sandal. Last Wednesday I bought it at Isetan. Including this.. it was the 3rd time I went to KLCC this month. For 3 consecutive Wednesday. Had a window shopping session, real shopping session, lepak at Kinokuniya (sejak bile aku ade hobi ni.. aku pn tak pasan)and bought some storybooks, jumpe Stone, jumpe Nana, jalan sorang2, price comparison and a lot more activities I've done there.. alone! I think I am one of the psychopath to myself. Haha..


Last week, I told myself that I must get over Shamsinar. But this thot seems couldn't work out. On Wednesday, I was called to sit down in front of her in the cafeteria.. just to listen to her Hitler-like-instructions. That time was the break time. I couldn't help that I can't hide my embarrassment.. treated like anjing kurap in front of others in that open place. I tried to tell her my difficulties in works.. but what she has to say was "Don't tell me that *** is trying to insubordinates you! You are now insubordinate me because you are not doing what I've asked you to.. and you don't even know how to manage you people!!!" Bloody hell!!! Ckp senang! Ce buat! This *** guy.. he is the one I've mentioned before that Shamsinar banned him from getting extra money. Neither from OT nor from any awards. He is the one that has changed to a better worker whom Shamsinar once said to us that she hates him even when the time she die.. and she said that she would never accept him even if he changed.


Shit!!! Almost forget. Tomorrow is my working day. I'm hoping that I can get the replacement leave on Monday. Nothing wrong with hoping.



FURB.




~~Life is yet to be settled down and for us to reckon the past as our history..

It's only a worthless piece of shit

This is funny . . . but do it before Google fixes it.



1)Go to Google.com.

2)Type in "weapons of mass destruction" BUT don't hit the enter button.

3)Instead, hit the "I'm feeling lucky" button next to the normal Google "Search" button.

4)An "ERROR MESSAGE" appears. READ THE ERROR MESSAGE CAREFULLY. Read the WHOLE error message.



Someone at Google has a political sense of humor.



~~Life is sometimes really a worthless piece of shit!

I'd would like to say "she luv ur son..."

Had a chat with one of my friend. She was acting as my Dr Love who's giving you a to-do-list. Gave me an advice and was acting like a counselor. From first step until the final step which was 'how to reduce pimple breakouts?'. After finished the 2 hours session with Dr. Love.. I can't really get my eyes to close and rest coz I just cant. So I decided to search for the tellie remote and watched Diari Akademi Fantasia (replay for 3rd time for that day).



Reckoned back what Dr. Love have said, I shrugged my ears, my chin, may face and sighed repeatedly. Is it true that I have to listen to her? But anyway... thanks a lot Dr. Love (if u read this.. u know it's u). Sometimes, things are not fair enough. I'm full of bewilderment. Please someone... get me out of these. I hate pimple breakouts all over my face.



Maybe all of u out there would say 'what the hell r u talking about?' or some whose already know the story would show sympathetic faces of maybe some are just gosh-am-I-glad-I'm-not-u.




~~Life is like working to get paid but u r not paying for ur happiness.. its other's happiness.. and at the end of time.. u'll realize that other's happiness is part of ur happiness too..

So called chaos

Last nite was such a boring nite. I headed to KLCC. Called my ex-officemate to fetch me home after I finished my so called window shopping for I have not seeing her for quite sometime. But later on, I cancelled my plan rite after I received a phone call from Nana. She was asking me to accompany her for shopping and of course the 'shopping' should be at KLCC since I was already at Kinokuniya. Guess what? I bought a novel, Can U Keep a Secret by the famous author, Sophie Kinsella. Her writing is good. She's the author of the Shopaholic series.

Kinsella has done an outstanding job of writing a sequel to a book that was fun to read, which are the Shopaholic series. I recommend these books for you to add those as your own collection. I suddenly bump into these Britain-bestselling-women-type-novel since I read one of those kind from Marian Keyes.



Had an expensive dinner with Nana and went for shopping at Isetan. Nana bought a pair of ELLE sandals and I was almost terpengaruh with her. I really want to buy that ELLE sandal too but luckily... "Superman saves the world.." No size for me. Haha for having such big pair of foot.



I reached home at 10.30pm. Hate of the procedure to enter my house during the time when nobody is at home. 4 door/gate/grill to be opened before I can manage to get into the house. And to make it worse.. I had a bunch of keysss... which I dunno which one is for which door. Meraba di dalam gelapp.. All this while.. I just push the tingtong button and somebody will open the door for me. Huuhuuu.. 'Makkk.. balik la umah cepat... org balik keje nak carik nasik bawah sajiii...' hehhehhe :P




~~ requote Life is a rollercoaster

Masterpiece

Got a few pictures from one of my friend's ex-bf. (susah ke nak paham..? hehe) These pic shows the scenery of Kuala Lumpur for the 50-60 years back. The most you-would-say-whoa-pic would goes to this picture of Bukit Bintang. Totally different from the nowadays Bukit Bintang! Enjoy...

~~Life is like wooden cart's wheel. Sometimes, u are on top. Sometimes u will tumble down. And when u down.. u feel the deepest hurt. Really bad coz its wooden.. not rubber tyre.

Pronto, Simone...

Today is the last day for Constantino Lamesi and Mathias and they both are going to Melaka for another new system installation for PONZINI s.r.l - Pharmaceutical Water Treatment. Its now the period of time for comissioning or Site Acceptance Test (SAT) or validation or in easy words... test run. New guy by the name of Simone.. please.. with correct pronunciation.. si-mo-ne. its SI-MO-NE(with italian slang). Not Simon! This Simone will continue the test run. Wahlauwei... takot la tgk this guy. Really looks like Mafia. Soooo... big size. If he did fails the test run.. he started to mengamuk sorang2! Takot siot. Tabest la macam ni.. tak dpt dgr whistle Tino lagi.. huhu... :P







His container.. back to Port Klang. And this is Tino - Beethoven Whistler




~~Life is beautiful in the eyes of every thinker..

Absolutely Zerooo....

Should have had this song to be posted so that somebody will understand what's going around?



You. You were a friend.

You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night.

You see, it was my fault. Of course it was mine.



I'm too hard at work.

Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your life?

I'm sorry for wasting your time.



Who am I to say this situation isn't great?

When it's my job to make the most of it

Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me.

Not that easy.



Hey. What's that you say?

You're not blaming me for anything.

Well, that's great, but I don't break that easy.

Does it fade away?



So, that's why I'm ... I'm apologizing now

For telling you I thought that we could make it

I just don't get enough to believe that we've both changed.



See who am I to say this situation isn't great?

It is my time to make the most of it

Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me.

Not that easy, no.

No, no no.



If all along the fault is up for grabs,

Why can't she have it?

If it's for sale, what is your offer?

I will sell it for no less than what I bought it for.

Pay no more than absolutely zero.


Well, neither one of us deserves the blame,

Because opportunities moved us away.

It's not an easy thing to learn to play

A game that's made for two--that's you and me.

The rules remain a mystery.

See how it's easy?



So, who am I to say this situation isn't great?

When it's our time to make the most of it,

How could we ever know that this would happen to me?

Not that easy, no.

No ...


When all along the fault is up for grabs, and there you have it.

Well, it's for sale--go make your offer.

Will sell it for no less than what I bought it for?

Pay no more than absolutely zero?





~~Life is like shifting the future

My House is Just 2 Blocks Away

Felt so sorry for I've to copycat a posting from one of my fwen's fwen... (sori bare.. tiru sket.. sbb aku cam suke je ape yg ko post tu)




Guys drinks to forget about the girl...

Girls drinks to think back about that guy...



When guys are in love, they become poorer...

But when girls are in love, they become prettier...



Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...

Girls can forgive, but cannot forget...



Guys care most about the quantity of love...

But girls care most about the quality of love...



Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...

Girls break-up when they feel Separation from her man...



Guys feels curios towards all girls...

Girls feel curios towards the guys who are Interested in her...



When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls...

When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...





Who am I to say this situation isn't great?

When it's my job to make the most of it

Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me

Not that easy...



If all along the fault is up for grabs,

Why can't she have it?

If it's for sale, what is your offer?

I will sell it for no less than what I bought it for.

Pay no more than absolutely zero.



Well, neither one of us deserves the blame,

Because opportunities moved us away.

It's not an easy thing to learn to play

A game that's made for two--that's you and me.

The rules remain a mystery.

See how it's easy?



Absolutely Zero.. Have u listen to this song before? Everyday I will spend a lil' time to listen to it.. lately.. at least 15 mnts. And I just cant help that I must cry whenever the song is on air




~~Life is wierd when u have everythin' within ur grab but there's still somethin u dont have and u feel u just being ignored by somebody that's not urs... (hmm.. I dont understand what I wrote...)

I'd like to say how truly bright you are

Last Tuesday, the whole family of Dolah went to Melaka Highcourt. Woho.. why aaa..? My sister being called to the Bar for her to be qualified as an Advocate & Solicitor with Mohd Latif and Associate. Soooo boring. The 'speech' been read out for 3 times for 3 different lawyer... but the format of speech was same. Whoaa.. [menguap]. I really realized that I really2 cannot be a lawyer. Nasib baik my career path now is totally different from legal and law. Tapi masa the 'Dato' Wira' baca speechnye.. "Dengan ini saya menerima masuk Siti Suhaila Binti Dolah sebagai Peguamcara dan Peguambela bagi Majlis Peguam Malaya...blablabla.." aku rase macam sakit dade. Rasa very2 proud of my sister. At least ade sowang lawyer dlm famili. Lepas2 ni ade case senang sket. Hehehhe.. Bile la aku plak nak di 'terima masuk' sebagai Jurutera Professional bagi Board of Engineers Malaysia. :(












A week been past since my fwens and I watch a musical theater, the Saturday Night Fever at Istana Budaya. It was performed out by the Australian and New Zealand cast. Quite hard to understand because of their English slang that we are not very familiar with. I loved the classic songs they danced to. If im not mistaken.. all by Bee Gees (Staying Alive, Night Fever, More Than A Woman, You Should Be Dancing, Jive Talkin', How Deep Is Your Love, Boogie Shoes, If I Can't Have You, Words and Tragedy and Immortality). Feel like I wanna dance together with them. Tp cam malu jek. Hehhe.. Got one group of audience whose really2 sporting. They was wearing the same costume as the performer. Their slick dance moves and scintillating choreography was superb! I wont regret for spending my money for an expensive show like this. Nah.. now Im really into 70's music. ehhehehe



Check this uk Nite Fever




~~Life is so adorable, i could just eat it all up

Reasonably reasonable

Tak tau kenape aku sedeh sgt2.. about my boss maybe. about my salary. about my colleauge. about my fwens. because of my PMS. Rasa cam nak nanes tp tak lepas. Td tak puas nanes dlm kete.. sampai org kutip tol tu heran tgk aku. Sukati aaa.. pegi la mati..!




~~Life is miserable rite now.

K-eep Chilling Like Ice Cream Filling

Try this.. (chepah.. ko mesti suke mende ni sbb ko suke horoscope)





~~Life is supposed to be cool like ice cream filling. So lets live life to the fullest.

Are You In The Mood For Some Dude?

Yaiks.... yesterday I was really feeling that I wanna puke. Got a technician guy (he's chinese) was doing some works here. But... he did'nt put on the button and the zip of his jeans. Aku terpandang mende yg aku tanak pandang... geli seyh.. terasa mcm dikacau dek Flasher jekk.. Terus takde mood nak keje. Dah le semalam aku kengkonon nak kuat iman sket. Semalam posa ganti.. ah sialan ya kamuh.(sekarang bulu roma aku meremang)



Just now I was nominated and won the silver award for team performance from one of the mentioned awards. Ahh.. I feel very guilty. I was not the person who was doing the job. I just planned and get my subordinate to finish it. Why wasn't he is the one who's won the silver price? Its worth RM100. Terkilan aku he was not included in the team.





~~Life is like that.. Channel [V] is like this... wink wink..

Who needs shelter from the sun?

Its was a really hot day. Because today.. I climbed up the roof top to set the point for piping installation. And heyy.. u know it? I climbed up together with the Italian guy that I mentioned before.. the one with the curly hair and a good Beethoven whistler. Just now I asked him, "From where we need to attached the pipe?". He said in Italian slang, "From here.. pheewitt.. until here.." with gesticulation. OOoOoooOwh.. by the way.. his name is Constantino Lamesi. Hehhehe.. I just like the way he works.. very stylish.










tino.. the guy with curly hair.. and a Beethoven's whistler..










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Yesterday I heard of a bad news. I think it was. My manager decided to resign! Goshh.. really.. we all back to feel the butterfly in the stomach nest week (lepas ni kene direct report to Shamsinarrrr....!) Mannnn.. he cannot even stand with Shamsinar that he can only works here for about 1 1/2 months. He used to ask me (for about 4-5 times within 1 1/2 months) such question "Siti.. macam mane awak boleh tahan keje kat sini?" Do u think that I should answer this?





~~life is like beauty as which for every beauty, there is an eye to see it

Dari Senaling ke Petaling Jaya

Kali ini aku mahu tulis dalam bahasa melayu pula. Sbb penulisan aku kali ini tentang pengalaman aku di kampung. Kg Pasir Ambor. (tp kene ke buat bahasa baku? ah.. tak reti aku) Sabtu lepas.. Cikpah ajak aku balik kg. Kebetulan aku tak keje sbb aku keje hari ahad. So, aku ngan Imah setuju jek la nak ikot Cikpah. Dari emel dia aritu mcm best jek balik Pasir Ambor tu.. maka balik la kitorang betiga ke Pilah. Sampai Pilah.. memula tgk Telawi. Gi stesen bas beli cendol. Beli grg pisang. Tgk kedai buku glemer kat Pilah. Tgk taik lembu dan seangkatannye (bapak la byk gile taik lembu.. taik kambeng juge..) Sampai umah Cikpah.. best ooo.. bau yg tapenah di hidu dan tadapat dihidu di KL. Mmg bau kampung yg nyaman belom tecemar. Pelik la jugak kalau aku ckp aku suke bau ni. Tp mmg aku suke pn.. mcm bau segar. Bau taik lembuu.. hehhehe.. sesampai jek teros CikNab soh mkn nasik dulu. Makan ikan masak lemak cili api. Pegaga msk cili api. Sayur bening daun meranti ngan sambal kentang masak cili api. Pedas mak oi!!! Sume cili api. Nasib baik masak bening tu tak boh cili api. Kot tak tu aku berasap le.



Lepas mkn.. borak borak borak borak borak ngan CikNab. Pasal perot boncit Cikpah (akakkakka... :p) pasal LongCoat (aku benci ckp pasal ni...) pasal Selaru.. pasal kurus (CikNab kate aku dah kurus compared to masa belaja kat UM.. byk mkn time tu sbb belaja kan.. tepakse la carik ayat kaver.. semenanye mmg kuat mkn bebile pn.. kesan pengaruh rakan sebaya si Imah ngan Cikpah.. kuakuakuaaa.. :p) Lepas tu gi jengok2 sekitar umah. Besar gile tanah. Lapang luas. Bleh wat 5 padang bolasepak (exaggerate) Ade segale mcm jenis tanaman. Sume ade.. bau rumput segar.. best la.. tapnah rase dok kg. Kg nenek aku pn kat Kuala Terengganu kat roundabout penyu tu. Bandar jugak. Tp aku rase aku tak reti dok kg la.. boring tatau nak wat ape. Mesti aku jd kuat tido.



Memandangkan kitorang nak dok kejap jek.. maka balikla dgn membawa bekal udang msk lemak cili api. (udang tu Yanz yg bg.. jauhnye nak kene masak.. sampai pos ke Pilah) Pastu.. CikNab kirim anak pokok keladi gajah kat mak aku. Kate dah kenal.. kene la kirim2.. (nanti mak aku nak kene kirim pau kat mak ko la aku rase..:)). Pastu lg.. gi isi minyak kat Stesen Petronas Senaling sambil mkn aiskrim. Jenjalan tgk Desa Permai Selaru (byk India la kat situ..) rumah yg di carik tak jumpe sbb tak ingat no umah. Tp bak kate Cikpah "tak dpt tgk orgnye.. tgk bumbung pn jadi la.." hehhe.. tp mcm seram jek. Sbb sampai situ time maghrib. Then balik.. lepas tu jek aku dah takleh nak jd narrator. Sile bepindah ke blog Cikpah utk citer selanjutnye. Sbb dari Senaling ke PJ.. aku terus tido.. ehhehe.. aaa.. tp b4 aku tetido.. ade byk tapak MEGALITIK kat tepi2 jalan kat pilah tu.. ape ek tu? mcm tapak sejarah jek




~~Life is like roses. Nice but have torns.

This is a Limited Time Offer

I dont like this! I read good news this morning. But its about my closest fwens. Their application with MARA was accepted! Congrats to Imah for the offer from Imperial College and Liverpool. (pilih la Liverpool.. nanti aku nak gi melawat ko.. hehehe). Congrats too to Cikpah for MARA.. but yet to decide which Uni she should apply for after this.. because she haven't apply any (wahlauweii... ko ni mcm tanak pegi jekk.. tayah pegi la.. gua takde umah nak lepak kang kat SS2.. eja pn dah klua!). Eja has resigned because she refuse to work in Bakun for the Empangan Bakun and yet she's having classes for Master here in UTM. Boomah keje Melaka. JJ keje Kerteh. Elly dah kawen. Tinggal o'a ngan yan. All my fwens lari.. away from me.. huhu.. sedeh sgt. Ade gak nyesal tak berkeras anta borang tu dulu.. sbb that time I was too busy. Hmm... dah tade rezeki.




~~Life is like letting others to dump your heart in a blender...

A Rush of Blood to The Head

Yesterday.. got samting to cry out. Dunno why.. suddenly sedeh to the max. Cannot write coz my emotion didn't feel very well. Cry cry cry from the inside until my eyes looked very sembab. A very sleepy day at the office. Balik awal. Tido awal. Bgn lambat. Today.. Im fasting for nazar but feeling quite dizzy like the first day of Ramadan.



Mother's Day has already passed. As usual.. we the family of the house would celebrate both Mother's Day and Mak's birthday together as my mum's birthday fall on 8th May. Each year.. I always thinkin of what present should I buy for her. Sampai tahun ni.. I malas nak pk and I just bought her some healthy product and supplement. I bought her KINOHimitsu, Kordel's Garlic and Kordel's Lecithin.. (macam hamper plak..) Quite a big amount of money jugak. But actually this kind of present can be considered worth too altho it can be consumable. But really the most important thing is the thought that really comes. What do u think?



Dah2.. jgn sedey. Mari kita nyanyi lagu ni..

Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head..lallalala... (bersiul siul). Siapa dah tgk video clip Blink182 - I miss yuh..? Yucks.. pompuan tu ade bulu ketiak besepai.. hehhe.. geli dowhh..

Try this out. New Siti Nurhaliza's record to be enjoy

Dhaa~~





~~Life is like quoting.."the cruellest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her falling in love with him but he dont intend to catch her fall.."..unquote. Thanks to cikpah for contributing this.

Waiting for My Rocket to Come

I had just finished watching Bad Company. Dont really feel sleepy. But all my sendi2 lenguh segale. Last nite I slept for only 4 hrs. Woke up for works. Balik keje gi umah my auntie. Then, dropped by Kodak Express.. bought iTalk IDD card. Headed home.. on the phone wif olleh. Makan Maggi.. then tune for Starmovie.. Big Company and now here I am. Still cannot sleep. Maybe just a few words before I sleep.



Things inside my handbag:



1. Wallet (same as cikpah.. cikpah tiru aku.. aku beli dulu.. :P)

2. Avon compact powder

3. Shiseido blotters

4. Maybelline lip smooth (salu sgt pakai)

5. Revlon lipstick (jarang sgt pakai)

6. Hansaplast (tak penah pakai lg)

7. Handphone (most of the time.. in my pocket)

8. Car key

9. ID tag

10. Nail clipper

11. Panadol Menstrual (promote GSK product)

12. Parker pen (gift redeem from Bonuslink)



Walla.. I just realized that I am just 'toooo girl' to be true.. hehe..




~~Life is like pinching ur kulit kepale.. boleh ka weii?

Do you want the FINGER?

I wanna curse somebody. Stupid! But I think its better for me to express it in BM (it will be more puas hati). Yesterday, one of the Head of Dept here asked me to train his operator and his Production Exec how to operate the thermohygrograph meter. I did teach them.. a few of the operators. After I finished, I got a phone call from one of the Exec, asking me to trained other operators whom he supposed to train them himself. Than I was like saying "OK la.. aku bawak attendance list skali.." The lines go like this:



Me : OK la.. aku bawak attendance list skali..

The guy : Ek ene.. ko ni keco aaa.. tu pn nak bwk attendance list. Ko ni skang pentingkan diri sendiri je ek. Nak lepas ko je

Me : Ape lak.. betul la.. training mmg camtu

The guy : Ek le.. ko dah le makin gemok! (WTF? Sukati aku la.. u r not my bf! and yet.. u pn gemok!)

Me : Tah pape. Sukati aku la ko sebok nape?

The guy : Jamban ko dah le semakin besar (aaa?)

Me : Jamban tu ape? Ko kutuk aku ek?

The guy : Ko kecoh sgt.. panggil Col. Bersara tu dtg jage kat sini tgk.. (which the Col. Bersara is my father)

Me : Ko apsal ni? Nak memain pn jgn la nak memain bapak aku skali! (bang off the phone)



10 minutes later



The guy: Helo

Me : Nak ape lg?

The guy : Lenkali jgn kuang ajar letak phone ek! (bang off the phone.. sbb nak balas balik)

Me : ??? (Bodo cam cipan!)



1/2 an hour later.. I received an email.. forwarded to his ring of fwens. The email contents makes me mad untill now. I feel my face turned to red and my ears were burning. Then, without letting them to pijak kepale... I reply back their emails. U guys can read below.. and judge who's deserved the FINGER!






**** ****** * *****

05/07/2004 05:17 PM

To: ****** * ******/KUA/CH/SB_PLC

cc: **** ***** * *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, **** * ******/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, ****** * ********/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, **** *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB

Subject: Re: Jambannya Semakin Besar......



BLAH AAA WOII... KUANG AJAR SGT TU APSAL? KO INGAT AKU TAKOT KE? YG SIAP MAIN NAMA BAPAK AKU TU APSAL? ADE AKU MAIN NAMA BAPAK KO KE? NAK MEMAIN PN JGN SAMPAI BAPAK LA WOI.. BADAN JE BESAR KALAU OTAK KECIK BUAT APE? ELEH.. NAK TUNJUK TERER KAT POMPUAN.. LAWAN RERAMAI.. APESAL KO TAK BETAMADUN SGT? HABIS BAGUS KE KO TU?





****** * ******

05/07/2004 05:13 PM

To: **** ***** * *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB

cc: **** * ******/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, ****** * ********/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, **** *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, **** ****** * *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB

Subject: Re: Jambannya Semakin Besar......



aku rasa aku tahu...wan, jgn letak 'phone' tau kalau angin...





**** ***** * *****

07-05-04 05:05 PM

To: **** ****** * *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, **** *****/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, ****** * ********/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB

cc: **** * ******/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB, ****** * ******/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@SB

Subject: Jambannya Semakin Besar......



Dear All...



Tak lama lagi di antara kawan2 kita dalam e-mail nie akan mengalami proses Jambannya Semakin Membesar.....Karet plak tue......

Cuba teka siapa dia?



Regards,

*****



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Gemok ke? Mampos kat diorang aaa..




~~Life is like living in a puddle of pervert's pee

Let Ambi Purr revitalize ur energy

This morning, the entire workforce in Malaysia (except for Terengganu, Kelantan and Kedah) started rushing to workplace after a long holiday. Stuck in a traffic jam every morning is a norm for those who are living in Klang Valley. First day of the week shouldn't be a bad day for everybody. I myself always treat the first day of the week as 'black Monday' and hoping that Saturday will come the soonest possible.



Get over it. Wash the car and wipe it shiningly so that the journey to the office every Monday morning would not be that bad. I'll be more confident with the brand-new-look alike-car.



Last night, I was clearing my stuff in my car and make it look tidy. Took out the rear sunshade so that the next morning I could quickly get in the car to my office. Then, I put back my umbrella, cleaned the rubber mat and clipped the air-cond vent with Ambi-purr. In the mean time, my brother was also busy 'cleaning & decorating' his motorbike. Then, these conversation happen:



"Apis.. ko letak la Ambi-purr kat moto ko.. :)"



"Hotak ko.."



Both: "Hahahhahhahha...."



Heha... sape terel sile letak Ambi-purr kat motor. Tgk.. boleh wangi tak?





~~Life is like a box of choc.. yu'll never knoe wat yu'll get untill u open it.. then only u'll regret if the choc is expired.